I Can Feel My Instincts Here For You
"You Know It Is Frightening."
Long time, no real entry. So, Valentines came and went. The guy I've been talking about attempted to call me and I missed his call... After missing his call for 6 days in a row. I'm not even messing with you - I legitmately missed a persons call six days in a row and only noticed each time until it was too late to call back. See, I'm the person people write about in articles going, 'maybe THEY DO LIKE YOU AND THEY'RE JUST BUSY!!! OR THEY'RE STUPID BUT STILL LIKE YOU.' I'm that person. I'm the person who gives hope to other people. Bless me. But yeah, I really did do that and I feel idiotic. I've been texting to intiate conversation since and we'll likely talk tonight when he gets off work. And get this - I'm going to call them. Revolutionary, right? I'm going to promise myself to do it because otherwise, I'll just get worried and not call. Worried of what, you ask? 'What if they don't want to talk to me?' Never mind, they actually calld me 7 days in a row.... Insecurity has no rhyme or reason.
Oh. Speaking of insecurities - I found a site that uses the golden ratio to gather if you're attractive or not. Oh, God, let's talk about all the things that I have no business being intersted in. But, hey, that's life. Anyway, I did myself, but I also did a number of celebrities, all female, that I found attractive, like Sade. Who did not get a straight up 10. Even though that women is GORGEOUS. She got a 9, but, still. Beyonces new face got a 8 and Beyonce's old face got a 7. Also, why does no one talk about Beyonces plastic surgery? Is this just a theory between young black children in Los Angeles because all of my friends and cousins called it otu but I don't remember anyone else saying it. I'm talking about when she was in destiny's child and specifically from the Writing On The Wall Album. The noses are clearly different. Why does no one speak of this? I feel as if I'm hallucinating. And Willow Smith, a young child I'm endlessly jealous of received a 9. God damn my life.
Then, there's Lily McMenamy. Google her for me, will you? Just a moment to look at her face. I haven't met one woman or man to ever call her attractive. They call her an obvious child of nepotisim, since her mum was a rather popular model. She got an 8, I believe. And you know? It actually got me to appreciate her face. I think she's really lovely to look at. Her angles aren't very good, to be honest, but straight on, she's pretty and, honestly, I'd rather look good straight on than from some odd angle. Then there's Cara Develigne who got a 9 and everyone seems to call her ugly but I've never gotten it. She has an odd face, for sure, but it's just unique but not uniquely ugly.
Oh, I got a 7. Doing the faces of other celebrities did not help my self esteem in the slightest degree and has brought attention to the fact that I am not a pretty girl from the front - I look good in slight angles. And I am just not photogenic, lol. It always amazes me when people think I'm attractive over the internet because I'm like, 'oh so if u see me IRL you'll think i'm a goddess... good... this is most good.' Gotta plan these things.
The golden ratio is primarily just based off symmetry of ones features and there are varying templates for different races(which is interesting that it takes into account the different facial attritbutes). Reading more about it, the calculations for when one is smiling is also different, due to the teeth becoming another area to be either symmetrical or not. So you know what? It is indeed true- smiling does make a person more attractive.
I'll talk some more later tonight.