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a ton has happened.
my life moves really fast. sometimes that scares me.
but at the same time its really exciting.
i do wish i would just make more time to stop. i hate how busy we are. all the time.
just to stop. take it all in. be overfilled with joy.
last week was tough. my mind was in a million places.
class wise things were really crazy. i spent more time reading then i think i ever have in a week.
i skipped a lot of classes though...to work on things for other classes. oopps.
wednesday was my aunt lavonnes funeral. it is always tough when things like this happen...because i am so far away. i feel so disconnected. and i cant explain the emotion i feel. it was a process...a long time of waiting...and praying...knowing that there was nothing anyone could do. it was a relief for us...but the loss of a wife...mother...and grandma is hard...no matter how long we wait in anticipation. i think of my cousins and their kids...and how just a month ago we were all together...and how a huge part of their life is gone. i wish i could give them a hug! anyway. when i talked to my mom on the phone i couldnt help but think of the fact that i have 13 aunts and uncles...8 with spouses. i just hate how many forever goodbyes and tears there are going to be...and that those are the only times the families will get together.(exception: the Harris')its sad. and i hate it. and i guess just to know that i more than likely will not be there for them. thats hard too.
and i suck at comforting people. its awkward and just uncomfortable. on the giving or receving side...im no good at it.
i havent seen tom in almost 2 years. thats a weird thing to think about. thanks dad?
anyway.
i survived the week. got all my stuff done. and even had fun working at harvest moon. i love bluegrass. and thursday nite was SO good! the 5 guys over in the corner just singin- playin and having a great time made me think of home! well the good ol days at home anyway. oh what i wouldnt give for another nite out around a campfire with everyone- elder donnie with his accordian or guitar- casey and his guitar- donnie and his harmonica- ahhh i love it. we would sing for hours and hours into the nite under the stars...laughing...telling stories :)
blessing of the week: totally was not scheduled for work so i got to go to the retreat! ahhh i was so excited i could go. i got off work friday nite and me- monica and sarah drove over to AL to the camp...got lost...eventually made it there around midnight. the familiar faces were so good to see. esp my thailand crew...matt renee adam and brandie were there. oh how they make me smile. seth from JSU- his brother was the speaker all weekend- his talks were all on faith. amazing. a big emphasis was that the more we see of God- the greater our faith...that sounds kind of elementary here.its not. not even a little bit. was convicting to keep pressing on keeping a focus on spending more time with God- in the word- in prayer. one of the best talks was on the fight of faith. funny how we dont think of ourselves in a war zone at all. discussion groups were really good. more later.
took a great hike up around the lake and ended up by the lake in a swing...for 2 hours :) perfect day! and perfect scenery. so good to relax!
anyway. it was a refreshing weekend. wrapping up with an excellent meal made by my roommate keri libby...soo good! and topped off with a drive up to mountain campus and cloves and singing. amen.
oh my replacement is here!
im out.
my life moves really fast. sometimes that scares me.
but at the same time its really exciting.
i do wish i would just make more time to stop. i hate how busy we are. all the time.
just to stop. take it all in. be overfilled with joy.
last week was tough. my mind was in a million places.
class wise things were really crazy. i spent more time reading then i think i ever have in a week.
i skipped a lot of classes though...to work on things for other classes. oopps.
wednesday was my aunt lavonnes funeral. it is always tough when things like this happen...because i am so far away. i feel so disconnected. and i cant explain the emotion i feel. it was a process...a long time of waiting...and praying...knowing that there was nothing anyone could do. it was a relief for us...but the loss of a wife...mother...and grandma is hard...no matter how long we wait in anticipation. i think of my cousins and their kids...and how just a month ago we were all together...and how a huge part of their life is gone. i wish i could give them a hug! anyway. when i talked to my mom on the phone i couldnt help but think of the fact that i have 13 aunts and uncles...8 with spouses. i just hate how many forever goodbyes and tears there are going to be...and that those are the only times the families will get together.(exception: the Harris')its sad. and i hate it. and i guess just to know that i more than likely will not be there for them. thats hard too.
and i suck at comforting people. its awkward and just uncomfortable. on the giving or receving side...im no good at it.
i havent seen tom in almost 2 years. thats a weird thing to think about. thanks dad?
anyway.
i survived the week. got all my stuff done. and even had fun working at harvest moon. i love bluegrass. and thursday nite was SO good! the 5 guys over in the corner just singin- playin and having a great time made me think of home! well the good ol days at home anyway. oh what i wouldnt give for another nite out around a campfire with everyone- elder donnie with his accordian or guitar- casey and his guitar- donnie and his harmonica- ahhh i love it. we would sing for hours and hours into the nite under the stars...laughing...telling stories :)
blessing of the week: totally was not scheduled for work so i got to go to the retreat! ahhh i was so excited i could go. i got off work friday nite and me- monica and sarah drove over to AL to the camp...got lost...eventually made it there around midnight. the familiar faces were so good to see. esp my thailand crew...matt renee adam and brandie were there. oh how they make me smile. seth from JSU- his brother was the speaker all weekend- his talks were all on faith. amazing. a big emphasis was that the more we see of God- the greater our faith...that sounds kind of elementary here.its not. not even a little bit. was convicting to keep pressing on keeping a focus on spending more time with God- in the word- in prayer. one of the best talks was on the fight of faith. funny how we dont think of ourselves in a war zone at all. discussion groups were really good. more later.
took a great hike up around the lake and ended up by the lake in a swing...for 2 hours :) perfect day! and perfect scenery. so good to relax!
anyway. it was a refreshing weekend. wrapping up with an excellent meal made by my roommate keri libby...soo good! and topped off with a drive up to mountain campus and cloves and singing. amen.
oh my replacement is here!
im out.