Shit that's on my mind I guess!
My hair still looks really pretty! I scored some graham crackers and some oatmeal from my brother in law. I have to go to two funerals Saturday that will probably both be closed casket and that's very fucking depressing! One person I'v e never seen and another I've barely seen in years. My family is so fucked up! That mental illness shit is nothing to fuck with. My cousin snapped and killed another one of my cousins. Not just regular killed either. Tortured him for three days and then stabbed him over a hundred times. Of course he's in jail and my other cousin is dead and then there's my other cousin's son Chris died day before yesterday. He was premature, only 5 months, and he had never even made it home from the hospital. That's some scary shit! So what kind of fucked up genes am I passing on to my kid? I'm getting my tubes tied swear to God! Aric already has plenty of kids so I'm sure he's good. We had a brief talk about it and he didn't seem to mind at all. So I'm definitely decided! Anyway, just got off work. Got a job interview tomorrow. Decided I'd rather type out my diary entries from now on instead of just writing them out like I did before I got back on the internet. Subway is killing me! And a big order, 560 subs on Friday is going to kill me even more! We are gonna need extra special help! But there's a $100.00 tip in it so that's really great! Wow! I was thinking of just Juhnta coming in Thursday to help with bake the bread, but waht about all the getables and the other shit we gotta use to make the sandwiches before the delivery gets there on Friday! Shit! Delivery at 10 am and then 280 sandwiches to be delivered to the hospital by 11 am. Then the lunch rush and Friday Tuna then 280 sandwiches by five and the dinner rush at the same time. I wanna quit now so I won't have to be there! My dog is on punishment for eating a whole box of Cinnamon Toast Crunch and chewing basically every remote in my house. He's so spoiled! Anyway, going to take a bath and go to bed.