needs and wants
just had a thought that I'm a pretty needy person. but that would mean that i have to have certain people/ things/ attention. and it's just not true! craving someone/ place/ thing is not the same as having to have it! don't worry your pretty little heads kiddies! Kolorean isn't off her rocker yet! just trying to convince myself more than anyone else. Cinco de Mayo ROCKED MY TIRED ASS SOCKS OFF! and thoroughly grounded me for a couple of days. Then yesterday's really bad thing had me all, what the hell, and i responded like well fuck it i'm relatively adult, and then i just said FUCK IT! and stopped thinking about it! Guilt is not something I'm good with! i'm reading an awesome fucking book. name unknown cause if i remembered the names of all the books i read my weed soaked mind would have no room for anything else! Anyway, since none of that calming, medicinal substance (yes i DO have GLAUCOMA officer), isn't available I'll have to leave you all with a statement of almost sleepy, semi happiness in the fact that I love you all and I kinda do need some people, but not all people and you can SORT THE HELL OUT OF YOURSELVES LATER! just kidding! I'm feeling mean tonight! didn't mean to take it out on anyone. just reflecting on missed opportunities and half finished shit i maybe should have tried harder on! Bye!