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[kolorbars]

surprise.

i drove all day sunday, all night sunday, and all morning monday.
i picked up my stuff from montreal, because i'm staying home.

for good.

a lot of it was financial.
a lot of it was i couldn't handle living that far away from the people i love.
a lot of it was questioning my program choice.
a lot of it was i didn't like the people i had met.

i feel confident, this wasn't a whim decision, i've thought about this since october/november.
since the fall i've been dealing with a lot of stress, and a lot of depression.
i never really talked about it.
i've prayed about it, and after finally talking to my parents, i feel as though two million pounds have been lifted off my shoulders.

i am going to apply at upei for next winter's semester, i plan on working this spring/summer to pay off debts/save money/etc.

on a side note, it was four o'clock in the morning on the way home when total eclipse of the heart came on the radio. i remember.
i got us lost in quebec city for an hour or more at two in the morning.
and i missed getting run over by a transport truck by inches at nine in the morning after no sleep.

so yeah, call me?
maybe not tonight.
i have come down with the death flu that makes you go half blind.