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i guess it really has been awhile, when the whole site is different. It seems nice though.
so almost an entire month had gone by. Go figure and in that entire month a years worth of situations have come into my life. Some have stayed, some left. and some ive completely forgotten about. Those are the things that will reluctantly reapair in the coming years.
But i have learned a great deal more than i was planning on learning. In the past year I lost a lot of friends, who arenow aquanitances, this number has grown higher, and the number of close friends i have may be smaller, but to me in fills a lot bigger of a whole. The people who i have in my life need to knwo how much i care about them, how grateful i am to have them there for me. I've always been told that if i can count my friends on a whole hand that i should be very grateful. Well i can count my friends on two hands. And each one of them supports me in a different way, just as each finger on my hand supports a cup when i need the stiffest drink i can handle.
it's funny how things change. I mean really one day you dont even know a person. and the next you're tlaking to htme like u've known eachotehr forever. connections are a lot more powerful than people think. they can come out of nowhere and they take control of you. THe person you are waling into a new relationship, even jsut goign to meet someone new, you are not the smae person walking out of that conversation. Every little aspect , every insignigicant moment in your life is more significant than you could ever imagine. remember that.
it seems that everytime i come to write in this thing, my mind jsut seems to wonder. and to me the person writing is someone completely different. But i guess somewhere inside of me this person lies. Because somewhere along the road i met someone who changed me, who brought this part of me out into the world. thank you to whoever that is.