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i'm thinking i need to get out of this house right now. but im thinking that i shouldnt leave my brother. i'm thinking that i really need to get out tonight. i'm thinking that i need a set of swings. and i'm thinking that i need a midnight conversation. i'm thining that today wasn't a good day. and i'm thinking that they should have picked another. but then i'm thinking taht there isnt any other because its everyday. i'm thinking that my voice doesnt count righ tnow and i'm thinking taht my little brother just took his first step into reality. i'm thinking how i felt at his age when i realized it all too. I'm thinking taht i really just need to be held. and i'm thinking that i really just want to cry. i'm thinking so hard that i jstu dont know how else to think about this. i didnt expect to think this so soon, no not this summer.