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[koleslaw]

today was a lonely day. ive assured myself things will be better. ive been spending a lot of time with my family which is....different, but a nice change. i'm content with my life in general right now, which is odd for me to say, considering certain circumstances. i can feel one of those urges to call brandon comming on, he just always made things feel better. i'm positive i won't, and honestly i want these feelings to stop. its weird how love works, really. i still find myself reminiscing over this summer. i still have dreams.

i'm okay being alone, really.

i just want to be more than 'content'.

i want to be happy.