On the tip of my tounge is a defense that is poised and rearing

[kokushibyou]

I hardly update although I am at this site multiple times a day....I am prefer to be an observant person as opposed to being the one observed I guess. Why is it that I feel like a shitty boyfriend? I try to make her happy and make all the moves but I seem to get no cooperation while she always tells me that that I am not open enough and what not. Yeah I guess I deserve whatever anguish I constantly experience. I mean I love her for fucks sake and all but what happens when her best friend and my best friend(also a couple, who are the idol little couple) tell me that she says she is putting more effort into it than what she really is? I know she loves me but she gets so irritated with me for nothing and no one knows why. I have NO idea of what to do.

I work too much, capitalism is overrated....I wish everyone just bartered like back in the day because you made use of your strengths and were basically a one person/family work force.

I would ask why I always pick the tough relationships but I honestly believe they are all that way whether they start off like that or not.....I just wish I knew what to do in my current situation.....fuckshitassballscockclitwhoremuffinfucker

ciao