As the tears stream down my face...
Why the hell did i think i would ever have a chance with him again? Why am i so God-damn stupuid!? He's in a totally different state, and even if he came back down here we're two totally different people. he's got his new girlfriend, and it's time for me to move on...actually, it's been time for me to move on for over a year now, past 2 new boyfriends and 1 new super-close friend. but i can't. i'm still so in love with him, i almost can't bear it. i'm sick of crying myself to sleep every night, sick of thinking of nothing but how it felt for him to just sit and hold me, sick of dreaming of him calling me and telling me that he loves me still. IT'S NOT GOING TO HAPPEN, and i just can't accept that. i'm such a loser.