Wow...
last night was awesome! Amanda came over (and slept over) around 9:45, and then our friends Seth and Phil, and then one of their friends came over at 10:30. We watched family guy and looked at Playboy and had oodles and oodles of fun. They left around 1:35, and Amanda had to drive them home because their other friend left because he had to be home by 12:30. Around 2:20, i called amanda to see where she was because she wasn't back yet...she was like, "sorry, me and seth were talking and i just dropped him off. i'll be back in 10 minutes." then when she got to my house she called, woke up my brother, and said, "i'm coming in the house, i just didn't want to scare you. are you in bed?" and i said yeah, and then she came in. ...with adam. adam had a rose for me and i wasn't sure what to think. amanda layed down on the air matress next to my bed and went to sleep, and adam and i had so much fun. we fooled around a bit, and then we just layed there...he held me in his arms and we talked. and it was so wonderful. i missed him, i really did. but now i don't know what to think... i don't just want to be friends with benefits with him because, well, i just don't. and i don't want to just be friends with him because i wouldn't be able to control myself and it would just be bad. and i don't think i want to go out with him again because i'm just going to hurt him, and i don't even know what i'm thinking. lately, i haven't been able to stay in a relationship for more than a couple of weeks. i need to get my thoughts together and figure something out. we're hanging out on monday before he goes to work. i mean, i don't know. i like him, and i felt like i was in love with him last night, but i think that was just the moment...i just can't fall back in love with someone after only one night, right? there are some things about him that really annoy me though. so i don't know. hopefully everthing will work out ok.
my eyes are burning from lack of sleep...he didn't leave till 4:45...
i have to do a shoot for the sun-sentinel today...we get to go to an i-max movie screening. i'm going to get a press pass!! i've always wanted one of those! i haven't been to an i-max movie since i was in second grade. my parents took me and my brother to see this one about mountain climbing, and i started screaming and crying my eyes out in the middle of it because i was afraid i was going to fall. haha. but they are very realistic. this should be interesting.
my parents are coming back today. this weekend went by so fricken fast. i wish they were staying another day, even though i do miss them.
no school tomorrow! woo-hoo!!
my eyes are burning from lack of sleep...he didn't leave till 4:45...
i have to do a shoot for the sun-sentinel today...we get to go to an i-max movie screening. i'm going to get a press pass!! i've always wanted one of those! i haven't been to an i-max movie since i was in second grade. my parents took me and my brother to see this one about mountain climbing, and i started screaming and crying my eyes out in the middle of it because i was afraid i was going to fall. haha. but they are very realistic. this should be interesting.
my parents are coming back today. this weekend went by so fricken fast. i wish they were staying another day, even though i do miss them.
no school tomorrow! woo-hoo!!