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i have a new friend! her name's Jenne. (pronounced Jenny...) of course i blabbed everything personal about my life to her, because, well, that's just what i do. i have a habbit of talking people's ears off when something is really bothering me. so she knows absolutely everything about me know, and hopefully she won't spread my personal issues. we got talking about guys, and so i started telling her about jon, and i started crying right there in public. with puffy (and black and blue and yellow still) cheeks. i'm doomed. it's definitely time to move on. i've had his home and cell numbers taped to my night table for a long time now, and the tape is finally wearing off. i keep telling myself to throw it out, and i just can't do it. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME!?!? i just cannot come to terms with the fact that it is completely over between us, friendship and everything, and that's that. i still hope that maybe pam is one of those really obsessive g/f's who made him promise not to talk to me, and that he really wants to but can't, and that if they ever break up he'll start talking to me again, but it's never going to happen and i know it. man, it just hurts so much. you know, it just sucks that she said when she commented on my LJ that she was done with him, and now they're going out again and madly in love or whatever, as people keep telling me even though i keep telling them i don't want to know.
i need to have sex. any takers?
i still feel crummy (wisdom teeth and bone grafting--wise) and i wonder if i'll ever get back to school. not that i miss it, i'm just missing a LOT of work. and i hate make-up work.
i think i'm going to try to make an "anti-valentine's day date" with rei...it's coming up, and once again, i have no one to share it with. and neither does rei, so we'll see.
i'm showing Mister Ed in this super big wellington eventing show either the first or second sunday in feb! (i can't remember which one...) i'm so excited!! i miss him and penny and jenna and susan so much-i can't wait to see them all!
24 is on in t-minus 65 minutes. i think. something like that.
gotta go (try) to eat dinner. hope everyone else's lives are going better than mine!
i need to have sex. any takers?
i still feel crummy (wisdom teeth and bone grafting--wise) and i wonder if i'll ever get back to school. not that i miss it, i'm just missing a LOT of work. and i hate make-up work.
i think i'm going to try to make an "anti-valentine's day date" with rei...it's coming up, and once again, i have no one to share it with. and neither does rei, so we'll see.
i'm showing Mister Ed in this super big wellington eventing show either the first or second sunday in feb! (i can't remember which one...) i'm so excited!! i miss him and penny and jenna and susan so much-i can't wait to see them all!
24 is on in t-minus 65 minutes. i think. something like that.
gotta go (try) to eat dinner. hope everyone else's lives are going better than mine!