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Tonight's been weird.
I was suppose to go to my friends graduation party in Lakewood but I decided not to go, I mean, I haven't seen her since last year and I kind of figured we only got an invitation out of curtiousy as oppossed to actual like... wanting us to come (sorry, I know that was a sucky way to word it). Anyway, I fell asleep on my bed after telling my mom (since she and I were the only ones who had the ability to go tonight) I didn't want to go, so I guess she called and told them I was sick or something so we wouldn't be showing up, and now Amber (the one whose grad party I didn't go to) was supposably kind of dissapointed but said she wanted to spend the night sometime. I know it sounds pathetic but the whole "wanting to spend the night" part makes me feel badly, just because it kind of repesents that maybe she really did want to see me.
Tomorrow's our school's end of the year "party" thing but I don't think I can go, I'm working at 12, well... I think I have to be there at 11:30 just because Scott doesn't know but I think I can pull it off, it's just stupid, don't scedule the friggin' thing so late in the day.
Then Melanie called not too long ago saying that she wouldn't be home to say bye before her trip tonight, and she and her boyfriend's family will be leaving immediently, she told my dad on the phone she'd see him on sunday afternoon for Father's Day but she knows he'll be gone for work by the time she gets home, and normally I'm on her side and respect her opinion but I'm really dissapointed in her this time. She won't even be able to see Dad on Father's Day when she could have at least stopped by for a couple of minutes tonight to say good-bye or something. And then that makes me wonder if she can just ignore Father's Day so easily, what's it gonna be like when we're older? "Oh, it's Andrew's birthday but I have a thing, I'm sure he'll understand." I love her alot, of course, but even though she claims we get along so well, I'm totally aware of how far apart we are. But it's because I love her so much that it bugs me that she missed saying bye to Dad, because when my turn comes, I wouldn't be surprised if she just ditched.
Anyway, that's enough for a self-pity entry tonight. Haven't written something like this in a while. Anyway, I really do hope Amber comes over, I'd love that so much! I mean, she was literally the first friend I ever made and then here I am talking about Melanie's decision when I just so willingly brushed off Amber's invitation.
Regret sucks, kids.
I was suppose to go to my friends graduation party in Lakewood but I decided not to go, I mean, I haven't seen her since last year and I kind of figured we only got an invitation out of curtiousy as oppossed to actual like... wanting us to come (sorry, I know that was a sucky way to word it). Anyway, I fell asleep on my bed after telling my mom (since she and I were the only ones who had the ability to go tonight) I didn't want to go, so I guess she called and told them I was sick or something so we wouldn't be showing up, and now Amber (the one whose grad party I didn't go to) was supposably kind of dissapointed but said she wanted to spend the night sometime. I know it sounds pathetic but the whole "wanting to spend the night" part makes me feel badly, just because it kind of repesents that maybe she really did want to see me.
Tomorrow's our school's end of the year "party" thing but I don't think I can go, I'm working at 12, well... I think I have to be there at 11:30 just because Scott doesn't know but I think I can pull it off, it's just stupid, don't scedule the friggin' thing so late in the day.
Then Melanie called not too long ago saying that she wouldn't be home to say bye before her trip tonight, and she and her boyfriend's family will be leaving immediently, she told my dad on the phone she'd see him on sunday afternoon for Father's Day but she knows he'll be gone for work by the time she gets home, and normally I'm on her side and respect her opinion but I'm really dissapointed in her this time. She won't even be able to see Dad on Father's Day when she could have at least stopped by for a couple of minutes tonight to say good-bye or something. And then that makes me wonder if she can just ignore Father's Day so easily, what's it gonna be like when we're older? "Oh, it's Andrew's birthday but I have a thing, I'm sure he'll understand." I love her alot, of course, but even though she claims we get along so well, I'm totally aware of how far apart we are. But it's because I love her so much that it bugs me that she missed saying bye to Dad, because when my turn comes, I wouldn't be surprised if she just ditched.
Anyway, that's enough for a self-pity entry tonight. Haven't written something like this in a while. Anyway, I really do hope Amber comes over, I'd love that so much! I mean, she was literally the first friend I ever made and then here I am talking about Melanie's decision when I just so willingly brushed off Amber's invitation.
Regret sucks, kids.