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So. It's been years, huh? I stopped posting because it seemed like no one read this journal anyway, and I was trying to do my art thing on tumblr, but boy is that site isolating and unrewarding.
I moved back to Minnesota about a year ago, and I've been working as a Special Ed assistant at an elementary school this year. I've been lucky that they're still paying us with the schools shut down, but I almost kind of wish they'd lay us off instead of dragging us along through this distance learning stuff. 99% of what I did was manage behavior problems, and how their parents are doing that. It feels way too much like days at the factory when the machines were down, and we all had to find things to pretend to clean so we'd look busy for 8 hours. Just send us home and admit there's no work, trying to look busy always made me crazy.
On the day-to-day, not having to get up and go anywhere is exactly as bad for me now as it used to be during summers off from school, when I'd end up sleeping til noon and doing nothing but waste time all day online until I'd forget how to be a person. Except now my online life is even more isolated, because I've got no friends on lj anymore.
The one thing I have been doing, at least, is drawing a picture a day. I've got them all posted at my patreon, since I've gotten fed up with tumblr. I've only got 4 patrons, but I feel like I ought to share with them if I share with anybody--and most of it's not behind a lock, if anyone reads this and wants to go look.
I moved back to Minnesota about a year ago, and I've been working as a Special Ed assistant at an elementary school this year. I've been lucky that they're still paying us with the schools shut down, but I almost kind of wish they'd lay us off instead of dragging us along through this distance learning stuff. 99% of what I did was manage behavior problems, and how their parents are doing that. It feels way too much like days at the factory when the machines were down, and we all had to find things to pretend to clean so we'd look busy for 8 hours. Just send us home and admit there's no work, trying to look busy always made me crazy.
On the day-to-day, not having to get up and go anywhere is exactly as bad for me now as it used to be during summers off from school, when I'd end up sleeping til noon and doing nothing but waste time all day online until I'd forget how to be a person. Except now my online life is even more isolated, because I've got no friends on lj anymore.
The one thing I have been doing, at least, is drawing a picture a day. I've got them all posted at my patreon, since I've gotten fed up with tumblr. I've only got 4 patrons, but I feel like I ought to share with them if I share with anybody--and most of it's not behind a lock, if anyone reads this and wants to go look.