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At my Bible study today, when they asked for prayer concerns at the end, I admitted that I need a place to live nd I'm running out of time. I usually only bring up sick or injured friends and family, and keep my own personal problems to myself, because... ? Because I am awkward and shy? Because I feel like it's weird to talk about your problems (admit you have problems) to people who aren't close friends or family? (Or, you know, strangers online.)
And it was kind of awkward, they all were so worried and trying to be helpful, but actually I could use some help, so is that such a bad thing? Obviously not. I mean, I'm asking for prayers for my problem, why wouldn't people want to also offer immediate present help as well, one might even say that's part of how prayers get answered.
And now I actually feel kind of better about it. And not just the housing thing, because I have a new possibility to look into and also people who might put me up if it came to it. I feel closer to these people, more like part of the church, than I have since I started coming here. If this ends up helping me really connect to my church community then this whole moving mess might be a blessing is disguise, more than worth all the stress and worry.
And it was kind of awkward, they all were so worried and trying to be helpful, but actually I could use some help, so is that such a bad thing? Obviously not. I mean, I'm asking for prayers for my problem, why wouldn't people want to also offer immediate present help as well, one might even say that's part of how prayers get answered.
And now I actually feel kind of better about it. And not just the housing thing, because I have a new possibility to look into and also people who might put me up if it came to it. I feel closer to these people, more like part of the church, than I have since I started coming here. If this ends up helping me really connect to my church community then this whole moving mess might be a blessing is disguise, more than worth all the stress and worry.