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[kokiri85]

The fuzzy warm feelings about her speaking up over alcoholism have pretty much worn off -__-

I never, never see her; I see her boyfriend more often. Because he never goes away. He's here in the morning while I'm making breakfast. I hate myself for being so nasty, but. Ugh. I tried to make an effort last week, asked her to go have tea, and she

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[kokiri85]

If it was just the boyfriend that was bothering me, that'd be one thing. But it's this pattern, that when she's on break from school and has free time she just disappears cometely, can't be bothered to make time for me alongside her other, more fun friends. I feel like I'm just back-up to her, for when there's nothing better to do.

I should still probably talk to her. Or--text her, since it's impossible to ever be alone with her in person. I just. Am not sure this friendship is worth the effort anymore.

[kokiri85]

*sigh* Yeah. I had hoped to talk to her in person, but there's never a chance... at some point I guess I'll have to figure out exactly what I want to say and text it to her.

[kokiri85]

Psh, she'd just bring New Roommate with her, and then her boyfriend would appear ten minutes later. Anyway, I don't like misleading people. I want to be straightforward.

Which... in a weird way is possibly why I'm so reluctant to say anythjng at all. My thoughts are so scrambled with anger that I don't trust them, I'm afraid the anger is distorting everything. I want to wait until I can be calm and rational about it.