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Sitting here in my living room listening to Brahms (Intermezzo, Op. 116, No. 6... specifically), I've decided that I really need to get out more. My life pretty much revolves around work and school now and frankly... that's boring the living daylights outta me.
I feel a rebellion coming on and usually that means that school will suffer. I need to find a better way to balance work and school with something even remotely resembling a social life before that happens. I can't afford to fuck up at school.
I was thinking about this the other day: out of my core group of friends, I think I'm the only single person left. Everyone else is married or heading that way or in a serious relationship of some kind. In general, I feel like a third... or fifth... or seventh... you get the idea... wheel sometimes when I go out with my friends. It's nothing they do, it just sometimes is odd for me to be the only one without a hand to hold.
And it's not that I'm not happy being single, either. I think I just feel like an outsider sometimes. A voyeur... kinda sorta.
And now I'm babbling, but I guess that's what this fucking thing is for. Heh.
I feel a rebellion coming on and usually that means that school will suffer. I need to find a better way to balance work and school with something even remotely resembling a social life before that happens. I can't afford to fuck up at school.
I was thinking about this the other day: out of my core group of friends, I think I'm the only single person left. Everyone else is married or heading that way or in a serious relationship of some kind. In general, I feel like a third... or fifth... or seventh... you get the idea... wheel sometimes when I go out with my friends. It's nothing they do, it just sometimes is odd for me to be the only one without a hand to hold.
And it's not that I'm not happy being single, either. I think I just feel like an outsider sometimes. A voyeur... kinda sorta.
And now I'm babbling, but I guess that's what this fucking thing is for. Heh.