Conflicting feelings...

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I feel a lot for her, too much at the moment. I should not be feeling this way about her. She is a great person and I like her a lot, but why am I willing to say the other L word. It is way too soon to admit those feelings to her right now, I don't even know if that's what I'm feelings, Is it love or lust? I like her a lot. Both physically and emotionally, but part of me is still holding on to the past. Some part of me won't let go of Danie. I need to let her go and move one....but I don't want kat to be the excuse why I'm moving on. I want to like her for who she is, for what she is and for where she's going...not becuase I'm in need of attention. I want to be a whole person when I'm with her, not someone looking for something to fill the void.

I will be strong for her though. I feel like I must protect her, even though she can do it herself.I feel that I will be there for her. When she needs me, I'll be there.

Hanging out with the kittens seems to have drained me as well. And so I will take a break from everyone.

I hope s.kitten knows she's loved, even though I'll be avoiding her for a while. :). I need sleep.