anti-drama
it seems like everyone elses life is either full of tear-jerking drama or they are partying and having fun with friends or at least working...but i am doing NONE of this...i mean its GREAT with Z sure we have little fights but its all small stuff that we work out within the hour...he's just fabulous to me and makes me happy....that whole thing is crazy to me because im just out of high school and i already found the one for me...should more stuff be going wrong? maybe im just a pessimist...glass half empty type....
as for the partying ...i havent been to a get-drunk-and-act-stupid party since i was like 14...maybe i wore out my party shoes early...
hanging out with friends is a tough one...
i hang out with Z everyday so he doesnt count...
the only other people i have hung out with lately are Bobby and Mandy...they are pretty cool...
me, Z, and Steve hung out with Billy and Audrey a couple of weeks ago and that night didnt turn out to well...
but as im telling you the people i have hung out with over half these people i dont really know if they are MY friends or not...
i know they're Z's but as for ME i dont know...
Steve is, ive known him the longest and i can actually TALK to him with having to have Z there...
i mean SURE i can talk to these people but if i was with them alone it would be pretty quite....
i still dont know if were friends...other people Z and i used to hang out with im pretty sure werent MY friends like jason, RC, Valerie,and everyone else because i just never talk to them...
which isnt anyones fault...maybe we couldve been friends but i came in at the end of these friendships...
their whole crew has broken up and its sad to see...i half believe some of its my fault...would Z and Jason still be friends if i hadnt started dating Z? i think so...maybe i havent made an impact at all...whatever
all i know is that i need some chick friends...some chick i can hang out with and complain to about chick stuff...
maybe when i get a job i can find that...all i know is i need something to do during the day...
ive been on this computer to much...
on myspace to much...
by the way if any of yall gots myspace my URL is http://www.myspace.com/koisurfer
as for the partying ...i havent been to a get-drunk-and-act-stupid party since i was like 14...maybe i wore out my party shoes early...
hanging out with friends is a tough one...
i hang out with Z everyday so he doesnt count...
the only other people i have hung out with lately are Bobby and Mandy...they are pretty cool...
me, Z, and Steve hung out with Billy and Audrey a couple of weeks ago and that night didnt turn out to well...
but as im telling you the people i have hung out with over half these people i dont really know if they are MY friends or not...
i know they're Z's but as for ME i dont know...
Steve is, ive known him the longest and i can actually TALK to him with having to have Z there...
i mean SURE i can talk to these people but if i was with them alone it would be pretty quite....
i still dont know if were friends...other people Z and i used to hang out with im pretty sure werent MY friends like jason, RC, Valerie,and everyone else because i just never talk to them...
which isnt anyones fault...maybe we couldve been friends but i came in at the end of these friendships...
their whole crew has broken up and its sad to see...i half believe some of its my fault...would Z and Jason still be friends if i hadnt started dating Z? i think so...maybe i havent made an impact at all...whatever
all i know is that i need some chick friends...some chick i can hang out with and complain to about chick stuff...
maybe when i get a job i can find that...all i know is i need something to do during the day...
ive been on this computer to much...
on myspace to much...
by the way if any of yall gots myspace my URL is http://www.myspace.com/koisurfer