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I have been spending a lot of time in Kurage and surfing around on line. Money has gotten tight, but then again I can't complain because I'm employed, as thankless a job as it is. A tooth which had cracked almost 10 years ago, broke 5 years ago, finally broke off entirely last week. So I have to get a bridge, I'm kind of glad, because with the bridge it will cover the surface of two more teeth which I am very shy about as the fillings inside of them make them appear kind of gray when I smile too wide. I have an irrational fear of the dentist. No that is not true I have a very rational fear of the dentist, I had at one point over 14 fillings after my braces were removed and they found the cement never really sealed well and there were pockets. Apparently my strange physiology makes it so that I don't process the anasthetic quite right, and it takes about twice as many shots.
As such.... every time I go to the dentist I steel myself against it. I tell myself its an irrational fear. that I need to just get over it. I sit down and tell them I'm fine. I lie. and then they start and the next thing I know the Doctors have slapped a mask on me,and I don't remember much after that. When I finally wake up or rather come around I ask why.... and the dentist tells me. "You put up a brave front... but I can tell your terrified..."
Okay... time to get to bed... Its snowing outside... I love the snow.
~あ
As such.... every time I go to the dentist I steel myself against it. I tell myself its an irrational fear. that I need to just get over it. I sit down and tell them I'm fine. I lie. and then they start and the next thing I know the Doctors have slapped a mask on me,and I don't remember much after that. When I finally wake up or rather come around I ask why.... and the dentist tells me. "You put up a brave front... but I can tell your terrified..."
Okay... time to get to bed... Its snowing outside... I love the snow.
~あ