In loving Memory
My cat, Lady, died. She was with us for 21 years. We had just celebrated her 21st anniversary with us on Sept 22.
She had been missing on Saturday morning. She normally wakes me us by pushing my nose with her own, and she didn't do it yesterday morning. I searched all over the house. In every nook and cranny of this house and I could not find her at all. I searched everywhere that I could think of outside, I had searched for over 7 hours before just giving up for the evening. I prayed so hard that night that Lady would wake me up this morning. She didn't though. So I went outside to search one more time. I found her body close to the house about 6 feet from my window. She had frozen to death. And she didn't normally go outside.
I brought her body to the White Bear Animal Hospital, where I surrendered her body for cremation. I chose a pewter heart-shaped urn that had two paw prints on the outside. They are also going to give me her paw print in clay that I just need to bake at home. And they're also going to make sure that they get a lock of fur before sending her for cremation. It was so hard to say good bye to her. Even though her body was cold and stiff, her fur was so soft still. Her ear was pliable. Soft, so that when it was rubbed, it shaped to my finger.
I still miss Lady so much. That won't go away for a long time. I miss her welcoming meow when I get home. I miss the way my nose shaped her chest perfectly. Like we were formed for one another. I miss her warmth and devotion. I miss the way she draped on me when I held her.
I miss her peeing on my bed, when I would have to wash my sheets and the waterproof mattress. My eyes sting so much when I think of her lying on the snow. I miss her drooling and her gas. I miss her peeing on the newspaper that I had to put under the litter box.
Then I went to the Humane Society where we had gotten her, just to look at cats. I know that if I didn't get a cat within a week, I would not be able to do it at all. I looked at female cats first but they didn't seem to like me much. ;-;
I decided just to look around for a bit to see the other cats that they had, and my eye fell on a 1.5 year domestic shorthair that they had named Austin. He looked exactly like Lady. Down to the triangle on her face. I can't help buy just feel so guilty over getting the new cat. I will name him either Tramp, Little Boy or Snuggles.
I feel so guilty for getting another cat so soon. Like I was robbing Lady of her proper memorial. But I won't ever stop loving Lady, and she has such a special place in my heart. The new cat will be intensely loved too, and he will have another special place in my heart.
On one side of his body, there is a heart-shaped gray spot. I believe that Lady led me to him. I believe that Lady is in Heaven playing with her brother and her other animal friends. I believe that Lady is curling up by my dad until the day I can come to be with her.
That's the best memorial.
She had been missing on Saturday morning. She normally wakes me us by pushing my nose with her own, and she didn't do it yesterday morning. I searched all over the house. In every nook and cranny of this house and I could not find her at all. I searched everywhere that I could think of outside, I had searched for over 7 hours before just giving up for the evening. I prayed so hard that night that Lady would wake me up this morning. She didn't though. So I went outside to search one more time. I found her body close to the house about 6 feet from my window. She had frozen to death. And she didn't normally go outside.
I brought her body to the White Bear Animal Hospital, where I surrendered her body for cremation. I chose a pewter heart-shaped urn that had two paw prints on the outside. They are also going to give me her paw print in clay that I just need to bake at home. And they're also going to make sure that they get a lock of fur before sending her for cremation. It was so hard to say good bye to her. Even though her body was cold and stiff, her fur was so soft still. Her ear was pliable. Soft, so that when it was rubbed, it shaped to my finger.
I still miss Lady so much. That won't go away for a long time. I miss her welcoming meow when I get home. I miss the way my nose shaped her chest perfectly. Like we were formed for one another. I miss her warmth and devotion. I miss the way she draped on me when I held her.
I miss her peeing on my bed, when I would have to wash my sheets and the waterproof mattress. My eyes sting so much when I think of her lying on the snow. I miss her drooling and her gas. I miss her peeing on the newspaper that I had to put under the litter box.
Then I went to the Humane Society where we had gotten her, just to look at cats. I know that if I didn't get a cat within a week, I would not be able to do it at all. I looked at female cats first but they didn't seem to like me much. ;-;
I decided just to look around for a bit to see the other cats that they had, and my eye fell on a 1.5 year domestic shorthair that they had named Austin. He looked exactly like Lady. Down to the triangle on her face. I can't help buy just feel so guilty over getting the new cat. I will name him either Tramp, Little Boy or Snuggles.
I feel so guilty for getting another cat so soon. Like I was robbing Lady of her proper memorial. But I won't ever stop loving Lady, and she has such a special place in my heart. The new cat will be intensely loved too, and he will have another special place in my heart.
On one side of his body, there is a heart-shaped gray spot. I believe that Lady led me to him. I believe that Lady is in Heaven playing with her brother and her other animal friends. I believe that Lady is curling up by my dad until the day I can come to be with her.
That's the best memorial.