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After a week of possibly the worst fallback into depression I’ve had for about two years or so, I’m feeling much better already.
My parents and especially my dad (my mum was away on a vacation with her choir group) were unexpectedly amazing with the whole thing. I'm not sure, but I think my dad may have overheard a friend and I talking on the balcony on Wednesday ...
She is my oldest friend and I've known her since childhood so I told her pretty much everything, how unbelievably sad and disappointed I was in myself (because of the thing that triggered my fallback, don't want to get into it too much) and how I would accept criticism from my parents - and I will, always - but I needed understanding and support above all.
My dad has been really great since that day, not mentioning the thing, being completely normal with me and just joking around as always. My sister being around also helped a great deal. I know they will probably want to talk about the situation sooner or later but I have so many other things on my plate right now, I hope they won't want to breach the subject as soon as I have dropped my sister off at the airport tomorrow (she's going to spend six months in Portugal doing ERASMUS).
Either way, this coming week is going to be full and I'm both really apprehensive and quite happy about it:
- Need to finish my paper (that I haven't even really started yet because the subject is beyond boring)
- Date on Thusday
- Job-Interview on Wednesday
- Party with one of my closest friends on Thursday
- Write up m BA thesis for my prof
- Birthday-Party on Saturday
- Birthday tea on Sunday
- Book flight for my parents 25th wedding anniversary
My parents and especially my dad (my mum was away on a vacation with her choir group) were unexpectedly amazing with the whole thing. I'm not sure, but I think my dad may have overheard a friend and I talking on the balcony on Wednesday ...
She is my oldest friend and I've known her since childhood so I told her pretty much everything, how unbelievably sad and disappointed I was in myself (because of the thing that triggered my fallback, don't want to get into it too much) and how I would accept criticism from my parents - and I will, always - but I needed understanding and support above all.
My dad has been really great since that day, not mentioning the thing, being completely normal with me and just joking around as always. My sister being around also helped a great deal. I know they will probably want to talk about the situation sooner or later but I have so many other things on my plate right now, I hope they won't want to breach the subject as soon as I have dropped my sister off at the airport tomorrow (she's going to spend six months in Portugal doing ERASMUS).
Either way, this coming week is going to be full and I'm both really apprehensive and quite happy about it:
- Need to finish my paper (that I haven't even really started yet because the subject is beyond boring)
- Date on Thusday
- Job-Interview on Wednesday
- Party with one of my closest friends on Thursday
- Write up m BA thesis for my prof
- Birthday-Party on Saturday
- Birthday tea on Sunday
- Book flight for my parents 25th wedding anniversary