PAIN
holy fuck.
can u say pain?
sooo i was at soccer practice today right? and i was juggling and i stepped in a hole (BURN THE HOLES!!) so instead of just kinda twisting my ankle, i dislocated my kneee.
if this has never happened to you, you have no idea the painfulness of it.
i mean, it didnt just kinda pop, i came completely out of the socket. i abruptly popped it back into the socket myself, because it scared the shit out of me (not literally)
omg it was sooooooooo scary and sooo painful. i might have been more scared than i was in pain...or maybe not, because it hurt like hell.
i didnt cry until i got home, and then i started bawling. not because of the pain, but because i was afraid i wouldnt be able to play soccer again, or at least not for a while. but then i realized tht since im young it ought to heal up pretty well, but i still wont be able to play for a while, seeing as it still hurts and feels like it could pop back out of place anytime i try to walk on it.
this is pure torture for me not to be able to get up and move around and do things myself. i hate it when i have to ask people to get stuff for me, i would much rather do it myself.
but it was sooooooooo GROSS. i mean, i was the only one who saw it and it was discusting. i mean, the leg bone completely just lurched to the left. ooooo God i was sooooo scared, i was quivering for like half an hour.
but what was worse was watching my other team mates get to practice, and i had to just lay there.
maybe i ought to quit soccer? i mean, since i wont be able to play for a while, i wont be able to practice. which is what i desperately need seeing as i still kinda suck. ugh, ever since i started soccer ive had nothing but trouble. actually, ever since we moved to ashville everything has been hell.
but ive come to a conclusion. God has blessed me by me moving to ashville. He did this just so that i could grow with Him. i mean seriously, i would NOT be as close to Him as i am had i not moved to ashville. man, is that love or what? so i will try my best to stop complaining about ashville from now on.
also-im beginning to get along with my soccer girls. they were really nice to me yesterday at the scrimage and they were all very supportive of me. they even made room on the bench for me at half time. i felt very loved.
so yeah, even though i killed me knee, life is pretty good right now.
AND, i think ive found someone to disciple me at ace! wow, life is good! ^_^
*sigh* unfortunately, for most of my friends it is not. everyone is in so much pain right now...i wish i could just give them all some of my happiness. i would love to share my joy with them. i pray to God tht He will bless them all with His love and joy.
can u say pain?
sooo i was at soccer practice today right? and i was juggling and i stepped in a hole (BURN THE HOLES!!) so instead of just kinda twisting my ankle, i dislocated my kneee.
if this has never happened to you, you have no idea the painfulness of it.
i mean, it didnt just kinda pop, i came completely out of the socket. i abruptly popped it back into the socket myself, because it scared the shit out of me (not literally)
omg it was sooooooooo scary and sooo painful. i might have been more scared than i was in pain...or maybe not, because it hurt like hell.
i didnt cry until i got home, and then i started bawling. not because of the pain, but because i was afraid i wouldnt be able to play soccer again, or at least not for a while. but then i realized tht since im young it ought to heal up pretty well, but i still wont be able to play for a while, seeing as it still hurts and feels like it could pop back out of place anytime i try to walk on it.
this is pure torture for me not to be able to get up and move around and do things myself. i hate it when i have to ask people to get stuff for me, i would much rather do it myself.
but it was sooooooooo GROSS. i mean, i was the only one who saw it and it was discusting. i mean, the leg bone completely just lurched to the left. ooooo God i was sooooo scared, i was quivering for like half an hour.
but what was worse was watching my other team mates get to practice, and i had to just lay there.
maybe i ought to quit soccer? i mean, since i wont be able to play for a while, i wont be able to practice. which is what i desperately need seeing as i still kinda suck. ugh, ever since i started soccer ive had nothing but trouble. actually, ever since we moved to ashville everything has been hell.
but ive come to a conclusion. God has blessed me by me moving to ashville. He did this just so that i could grow with Him. i mean seriously, i would NOT be as close to Him as i am had i not moved to ashville. man, is that love or what? so i will try my best to stop complaining about ashville from now on.
also-im beginning to get along with my soccer girls. they were really nice to me yesterday at the scrimage and they were all very supportive of me. they even made room on the bench for me at half time. i felt very loved.
so yeah, even though i killed me knee, life is pretty good right now.
AND, i think ive found someone to disciple me at ace! wow, life is good! ^_^
*sigh* unfortunately, for most of my friends it is not. everyone is in so much pain right now...i wish i could just give them all some of my happiness. i would love to share my joy with them. i pray to God tht He will bless them all with His love and joy.