shitty deal
Everyone is cancelling on me! *cry*
I'm not mad at you Elizabeth, things come up. I don't want you to get the wrong idea when I post this. What is bothering me the most is that my mom led me to believe she was going to take me to PEI this weekend. Now she tells me she just spent 500 on glasses and MAYBE we can go in July. Don't get me wrong, I love my mother, but I should have expected this. She isn't the type to trust to go through with things like that. Sad to say. But I let myself get excited. heh. stupid me. baka amy.
As for the tea night being cancelled, I;m ok with that. Shit happens. I guess, its because my mom cancelled on me that I feel kinda of...upset. It all happened in one day kind of thing. Now I have the rest of my vacation and I dont know what to do with myself. Maybe I can still take a trip to fredericton?
Part of me does not want to go. I love Kayla, but I dont want to go out to gay bars every night, and I know she has to work and I dont want to be left alone with nothing to do. I mean, I may as well stay here and do that.
*Sigh*
Not to mention that Monday Andrew made me cry, mainly because HE told me the night before we can go out and do stuff, and then that morning he said he didn't want to go out anymore, blah blah. So, yeah, this weekend has been full of cancellations. Its just getting to me.
I do know Kayla wants me to visit. I dont want to be mean and not go, but part of me wants to, and the other half doesn't want to. I can't decide. So I am not sure what I am going to do. My gransmother goes away to Ontario for about a week starting tomorrow, so I can't bum her to do anthing with me. ALthough she did go out for lunch with me today, we went to Smitty's, which was nice. I'm glad I got to see her before she goes on her trip.
I realise this week that I dont miss work one bit. Usually when I go on vacation I miss the routine of work. I feel like something is missing. But I don't feel that at all. I'm very tempted to find a retail job, since ANdrew is happy at his new job, and making good money. I'm tired of call centres, even though UPS has been very good to me. The people I work with are great, but I'm really getting tired of the calls. I'm tired of being bitched at. Its almost like, I dont really have any other purpose other than for people to call and get their frustrations out on me.
I mean, technically I have a job to do. I can do lots of things, but when I offer to do these things, (my job), people continue to bitch at me, and in the end nothing gets done. BEcause they just want to bitch.
Its sad. I'm tired of it.
I really should paint more. Maybe if I did I could sell something. I was at the Moncton Art society the other day and there were paintings being sold for a couple of hundered dollars. Some, I mean, there are a lot of things that I think is art, but there are some that I can't imagine paying 250.00 for. So, I think I can do it. You just have to volunteer there to have your paintings put up. :)
Maybe I should give it a try.
W
Well, I feel a little better typing all this out. Elizabeth and I can go to tea anytime, so thats not bad. But as for my mom, I almost don't want to go with her anymore. My grandmother said if mom doesn't take me, she will, and maybe we can bring Andrew too. I'd like to go with my grandmother more than my mother. I know it sounds mean, but I've always been super close to my grandmother. My grandparents pretty much raised me. So did my mom, I'm not taking credit away from her, but I spend ALOT of time with Granny and Papa.
Anyway.
I'm not mad at you Elizabeth, things come up. I don't want you to get the wrong idea when I post this. What is bothering me the most is that my mom led me to believe she was going to take me to PEI this weekend. Now she tells me she just spent 500 on glasses and MAYBE we can go in July. Don't get me wrong, I love my mother, but I should have expected this. She isn't the type to trust to go through with things like that. Sad to say. But I let myself get excited. heh. stupid me. baka amy.
As for the tea night being cancelled, I;m ok with that. Shit happens. I guess, its because my mom cancelled on me that I feel kinda of...upset. It all happened in one day kind of thing. Now I have the rest of my vacation and I dont know what to do with myself. Maybe I can still take a trip to fredericton?
Part of me does not want to go. I love Kayla, but I dont want to go out to gay bars every night, and I know she has to work and I dont want to be left alone with nothing to do. I mean, I may as well stay here and do that.
*Sigh*
Not to mention that Monday Andrew made me cry, mainly because HE told me the night before we can go out and do stuff, and then that morning he said he didn't want to go out anymore, blah blah. So, yeah, this weekend has been full of cancellations. Its just getting to me.
I do know Kayla wants me to visit. I dont want to be mean and not go, but part of me wants to, and the other half doesn't want to. I can't decide. So I am not sure what I am going to do. My gransmother goes away to Ontario for about a week starting tomorrow, so I can't bum her to do anthing with me. ALthough she did go out for lunch with me today, we went to Smitty's, which was nice. I'm glad I got to see her before she goes on her trip.
I realise this week that I dont miss work one bit. Usually when I go on vacation I miss the routine of work. I feel like something is missing. But I don't feel that at all. I'm very tempted to find a retail job, since ANdrew is happy at his new job, and making good money. I'm tired of call centres, even though UPS has been very good to me. The people I work with are great, but I'm really getting tired of the calls. I'm tired of being bitched at. Its almost like, I dont really have any other purpose other than for people to call and get their frustrations out on me.
I mean, technically I have a job to do. I can do lots of things, but when I offer to do these things, (my job), people continue to bitch at me, and in the end nothing gets done. BEcause they just want to bitch.
Its sad. I'm tired of it.
I really should paint more. Maybe if I did I could sell something. I was at the Moncton Art society the other day and there were paintings being sold for a couple of hundered dollars. Some, I mean, there are a lot of things that I think is art, but there are some that I can't imagine paying 250.00 for. So, I think I can do it. You just have to volunteer there to have your paintings put up. :)
Maybe I should give it a try.
W
Well, I feel a little better typing all this out. Elizabeth and I can go to tea anytime, so thats not bad. But as for my mom, I almost don't want to go with her anymore. My grandmother said if mom doesn't take me, she will, and maybe we can bring Andrew too. I'd like to go with my grandmother more than my mother. I know it sounds mean, but I've always been super close to my grandmother. My grandparents pretty much raised me. So did my mom, I'm not taking credit away from her, but I spend ALOT of time with Granny and Papa.
Anyway.