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My aunt Roxie died today... I was at work when my sister called me I couldn't stop crying so they sent me home. My mom wants me to still go down to kingman so I am but I really don't want to. I hate christmas so much right now... If I hear a christmas song I will lose it and have a breakdown on top of the break down I am already going through. My mom keeps talking about how it is God's plan... Well FUCK your Asshole of a God and he can EAT MY ASS!!! I mean my Aunt Roxie won't get to see me graduate niether will my mother my father or my grandpa/dad so all I have left is my grandma/mom and she is 62. Roxie took under 2 months to be diagnosed and die what happens when something happens to my mom she is all I have in this world... I just am lost and dont know what to do I just dont understand anything