[Fanfiction] All I want for Xmas [R]
Another random fanfiction from me XD Hope you like it somehow.
It belongs to shadichan ^0^ I love you ♥
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Title: All I want for Xmas
Genre: Romance (I think so) [cheesy in a way]
Rating: R ! [contains Sex between Guys]
Pairing: KyuSaeng [KyuJong x YoungSaeng]
POV: KyuJong
Warning: English is not my first language, so please accept and look over mistakes.
And as you see it's R-rated, maybe it's even smut... Just want to say it XD
Disclaimer: I do not own any of the persons I used in the fanfiction.
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„KyuJong?“
YoungSaeng's soft voice reached my ear and I looked up in surprise. He looked a little bit helpless, but somehow it looked cute on him.
“Can I help you?” I asked him and he nodded excitedly.
It was never the thing, that he and I were really close. I mean, how close could you get when you were living with four other boys in an apartment twenty-four hours the day? We were like brothers, close brothers and I really loved this. I wasn't a outgoing guy and he was the same as me. So after a few weeks we learned to understand each other and became closer. And it didn't take a long time until I fell for him. But I never told him this fact. I was afraid, that he didn't want to be my friend anymore when he found out, how I felt, that he thought of boyslove a little bit disgusted. But I didn't care, I could hide my feelings in front of him and he never noticed my longing looks. Or maybe he did, but never showed it to me.
I also was concerned, how the other three boys would react when they would find out. We never had talked about something like that.
Therefore I tried to hide my feelings. It was never that easy, but it worked, even when I had built a little wall between me and YoungSaeng. I didn't know if he noticed it, but I knew it was there to save me from everything he did, from everything that I could find cute and handsome on him.
“Christmas is tomorrow.” He began and I listened up. What was he trying to ask?
“For the other three I have already some presents, but.. I.. I don't know what I should give to you..”
Now he looked a little bit nervous and that made me smile.
“You don't have to give me something, you know?” He couldn't give me something that I really wanted. Because all I really wanted was him, but how should I say this to him?
“But I really like to give you a present. It's unfair if the other three get one and you are the only one without a present.”
“But I told you, that there is nothing you can give to me. I don't want any stuff from you.” I blushed a bit but I was sure that he didn't noticed it. That was too much what I have said.
His thoughtful face made me curious. Did he have a clue what I meant with this? But it was better if I didn't ask him about that.
I left the room because I couldn't stand this anymore.
The night I didn't sleep very well. Most of the time I lay in my bed full awake and thought about the wall I built to hide my feelings and how helpless YoungSaeng was when there were only we both in one room. 'Maybe you should confess to him..' A little voice inside me said this many times this night. And somehow I wondered if this would be the best idea. It was Christmas, maybe it would be a little bit cheesy to confess to somebody right at this day, but I couldn't wait any longer. And I had the full responsibility if something happened.
The whole day I was thinking about how to say anything to him. YoungSaeng seemed in his thoughts again, every time he saw me. The other three of us began to tease at us, but I didn't care and he didn't seem to notice it. I was curious if he had found an answer for his present problem, but I had to wait until evening because we decided to exchange our presents then.
The hours really passed by very slowly but maybe that was because I was really nervous. I never confess to anyone, it would be my first time and I hoped that I didn't do anything wrong. I still had doubts if this was the right thing, but I couldn't hide behind a wall anymore.
Finally it was evening and we sat in the living room to exchange our presents. I wasn't really interested in the presents from the others. All I wanted to know was what YoungSaeng would give me, if he had find something for me. But he didn't give something to me. The other three of us unpacked there present and I sat there, didn't know what I should to as to look at them in jealousy.
“KyuJong?” I looked to the man who was speaking and saw one of his beautiful smiles. “Can we go somewhere else?” He asked silently, so the others wouldn't hear him and I nodded in agreement. I followed him in his room and was surprised as I entered the room. Was this my present? He had decorated his room with many candles which conjured a soothing light in the room. I was irritated and turned quick around as I heard the door closing.
“Do you like it?” I faced him with a smile which appeared as he asked his question.
“Yes.” I said simple and he returned the smile.
“You made it hard for me, do you know?” He was coming closer to me as he said this.
Surprised I raised my eyebrows. “Why?”
“You said you didn't want any presents for me because you didn't want any stuff from me.”
I remembered my own words and nodded to this sentence.
“Well, I was really thinking about it the whole night. First I didn't understand what you were meaning with this. And I started to think about our whole relationship. I realized that you were going away from me, that you built a distance between you and me that I couldn't overcome.”
Now he was standing in front of me and I could feel his light breath on my skin.
“What are you trying to say, YoungSaeng?” I asked nervously.
“I wondered, why you acting like this. Maybe I don't find the right reason for it, but I was sure, that this here would make you happy... Somehow..” He smiled again and grabbed both of my hands.
I was confused. So he didn't plan anything, just wanted to make me happy with this?
I felt like crying because he tried his best to give me something. Maybe this was the right time now to confess to him. But I didn't know how to start. Helpless I took him into a close hug.
“I'm so sorry.” I flustered into his ear and he shivered a bit.
“For what?” He asked quietly at my neck.
“That I'm just a coward.”
He wanted to look at me and so I loosened the hug a bit. His eyes were irritated because he couldn't imagine what I was talking about.
I sighed. 'Now or Never!' I told myself.
“YoungSaeng, maybe this is the right time to tell you something.”
His eyes were wide now and I could read fear in them. I tried to smile, but it was surely just weak.
I took a deep breath and then started to talk.
“I love you. I really love you and that for a long time. But I never dared to say so, because I was afraid that you won't like me anymore, that you were disgust of me, so I built this distance, this wall between us.”
Now it was out and I couldn't turn it back. I really was afraid to look at him now. I mean, he did this wonderful thing and I was telling him something which he maybe didn't like.
But then I felt his hand at my cheek, stroking it with such a mildness, that I could hardly hide my tears.
“You're an idiot, KyuJong.” He said softly.”Why should I be disgust because you love me?”
I raised my head to look into his lovely eyes. He was right, there were no disgust or anything else like this. All I could see were his warm eyes and his bright smile.
“So, you're not...”
I couldn't finished my question because his lips stopped me as he kissed me carefully. I was overwhelmed by his taste. I really dreamed about this, kissing the guy in my arms, but I never thought that he would taste like this.
When he ended the kiss, I was completely intoxicated. My mind went off and I couldn't help but kissed him again. He softly giggled and pulled me to his bed.
“The candles weren't everything as your gift.” He said with a low voice.
He lay down on his bed and pulled me above him, kissing me again. His tongue poked at my lower lip and I didn't hesitate to open my mouth for him. He entered it immediately and explored it with his tongue. As he was sure to found out anything inside there he poked my own tongue to play with his. And I returned his playful pokes.
My hands were uncontrollable. While we were kissing I moved them down to his body and under his shirt to touch his soft skin. He moaned silently. I ended the kiss and lifted him a bit, so I could undress his shirt. He just smiled and lay down again. He watched me with curious eyes. Did he know how sexy he looked like this? I caught his lips again, while my fingers moved over his chest, stroked over every inch of his skin there and began to pinch his nipples gently.
Again he moaned silently and I knew that he liked it. I stopped the kiss on his lips only to search the way down with them to his neck.
His hands weren't standing still as well. While I was busy with his neck, his hands started to stroked over my back, leaving goose bumps everywhere they touched. I shivered in excitement and bit him into his neck.
“Don't eat me.” He chuckled and I bit him again.
“You're too delicious.” I answered him, but let go of his neck and kissed me down to his nipples where I bit him again.
His moan grew loader now and I was totally addicted to it. It sounded so sexy like he looked. And I knew that I couldn't really wait now anymore. While I was busy with my lips on his nipples, my hands traveled more to the south until they reached his pants. Without hesitation I unbutton it and took it with a little help from YoungSaeng off. While I did this, he quickly sat up and undressed me as well. I smiled a bit because that meant that he was also impatient like me.
As soon as we both were naked he lay down again and pulled me with him. I kissed his lips again, now in full passion and excitement and he returned it like that as well. I moved a bit with my hips and let out a grown because I touched his member with my own. Now I really couldn't wait.
So I started again my trip to the south with my lips, kissing his neck, his collarbone, bit once again in one of his nipples and go down further. I saw him shiver at my touches and kisses and heard his moans of pleasure. And I was satisfied that he liked the things I gave him. When I placed a kiss on his already hard member he came towards me with his hips.
“More...” He begged while he was panting really hard.
“Your wish is my command.” I replied and took his whole member into my mouth.
I started to suck at it and didn't wait to do it slowly. We needed it fast, that was a thing I was totally sure about. His groans were now loader and faster than ever and I moved with one hand to his butt and caress it a while. I stopped my work on his member and pushed me up to him to look into his eyes.
“I will be gentle, promise.” I said huskily and he nodded dazed.
I kissed his lips again, poked his lower lip with my tongue and slid my tongue into his mouth as he opened it. With this deviation I slowly entered my first finger into him and waited some seconds. He showed no reaction of pain and I started to move it gently in him. When I was sure he was used to it, I added a second finger so I could stretched him slowly and carefully. But I couldn't concentrate on this any longer, because YoungSaeng moved in full excitement in front of me and this sight really pushed me up.
I took my fingers off him and brought me into the right position above him. Again I kissed him for deflection and started to slid into him slowly and carefully. This time he winced a bit in pain and I waited until he showed me to go on. When my whole length were inside him I waited again so he could get used of me.
Then I started to move slowly inside him, even if I couldn't hold it anymore. But I didn't want to hurt him so I concentrated for the first moves. A load and uncontrollable moan caught my attention and I tried to find the same spot again to hit against it. Another groan confirmed me that I hit the right spot inside him and I smiled. There was his weak point.
We both were panting really hard now and my thrusts were faster than before. When I was sure, it didn't take long any more until I reached my climax, I reached for his member and pumped it in the same rhythm as my thrusts.
And it only took a few more thrust and pumps as his grabbed my shoulder and then came right in my hand. And because of his coming I was so excited that I came right after him with a load groan.
Exhausted I took myself out of him and lay down next to him. He clung to me automatically and I put my arms around me.
For a while we only listened to our heartbeats and our breaths to be normal again.
“Best Christmas ever.” He said silently and I had to smile.
He was right, this was the best Christmas ever in my whole life.
“Merry Christmas.” I answered and kissed him on his forehead.
It belongs to shadichan ^0^ I love you ♥
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Title: All I want for Xmas
Genre: Romance (I think so) [cheesy in a way]
Rating: R ! [contains Sex between Guys]
Pairing: KyuSaeng [KyuJong x YoungSaeng]
POV: KyuJong
Warning: English is not my first language, so please accept and look over mistakes.
And as you see it's R-rated, maybe it's even smut... Just want to say it XD
Disclaimer: I do not own any of the persons I used in the fanfiction.
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„KyuJong?“
YoungSaeng's soft voice reached my ear and I looked up in surprise. He looked a little bit helpless, but somehow it looked cute on him.
“Can I help you?” I asked him and he nodded excitedly.
It was never the thing, that he and I were really close. I mean, how close could you get when you were living with four other boys in an apartment twenty-four hours the day? We were like brothers, close brothers and I really loved this. I wasn't a outgoing guy and he was the same as me. So after a few weeks we learned to understand each other and became closer. And it didn't take a long time until I fell for him. But I never told him this fact. I was afraid, that he didn't want to be my friend anymore when he found out, how I felt, that he thought of boyslove a little bit disgusted. But I didn't care, I could hide my feelings in front of him and he never noticed my longing looks. Or maybe he did, but never showed it to me.
I also was concerned, how the other three boys would react when they would find out. We never had talked about something like that.
Therefore I tried to hide my feelings. It was never that easy, but it worked, even when I had built a little wall between me and YoungSaeng. I didn't know if he noticed it, but I knew it was there to save me from everything he did, from everything that I could find cute and handsome on him.
“Christmas is tomorrow.” He began and I listened up. What was he trying to ask?
“For the other three I have already some presents, but.. I.. I don't know what I should give to you..”
Now he looked a little bit nervous and that made me smile.
“You don't have to give me something, you know?” He couldn't give me something that I really wanted. Because all I really wanted was him, but how should I say this to him?
“But I really like to give you a present. It's unfair if the other three get one and you are the only one without a present.”
“But I told you, that there is nothing you can give to me. I don't want any stuff from you.” I blushed a bit but I was sure that he didn't noticed it. That was too much what I have said.
His thoughtful face made me curious. Did he have a clue what I meant with this? But it was better if I didn't ask him about that.
I left the room because I couldn't stand this anymore.
The night I didn't sleep very well. Most of the time I lay in my bed full awake and thought about the wall I built to hide my feelings and how helpless YoungSaeng was when there were only we both in one room. 'Maybe you should confess to him..' A little voice inside me said this many times this night. And somehow I wondered if this would be the best idea. It was Christmas, maybe it would be a little bit cheesy to confess to somebody right at this day, but I couldn't wait any longer. And I had the full responsibility if something happened.
The whole day I was thinking about how to say anything to him. YoungSaeng seemed in his thoughts again, every time he saw me. The other three of us began to tease at us, but I didn't care and he didn't seem to notice it. I was curious if he had found an answer for his present problem, but I had to wait until evening because we decided to exchange our presents then.
The hours really passed by very slowly but maybe that was because I was really nervous. I never confess to anyone, it would be my first time and I hoped that I didn't do anything wrong. I still had doubts if this was the right thing, but I couldn't hide behind a wall anymore.
Finally it was evening and we sat in the living room to exchange our presents. I wasn't really interested in the presents from the others. All I wanted to know was what YoungSaeng would give me, if he had find something for me. But he didn't give something to me. The other three of us unpacked there present and I sat there, didn't know what I should to as to look at them in jealousy.
“KyuJong?” I looked to the man who was speaking and saw one of his beautiful smiles. “Can we go somewhere else?” He asked silently, so the others wouldn't hear him and I nodded in agreement. I followed him in his room and was surprised as I entered the room. Was this my present? He had decorated his room with many candles which conjured a soothing light in the room. I was irritated and turned quick around as I heard the door closing.
“Do you like it?” I faced him with a smile which appeared as he asked his question.
“Yes.” I said simple and he returned the smile.
“You made it hard for me, do you know?” He was coming closer to me as he said this.
Surprised I raised my eyebrows. “Why?”
“You said you didn't want any presents for me because you didn't want any stuff from me.”
I remembered my own words and nodded to this sentence.
“Well, I was really thinking about it the whole night. First I didn't understand what you were meaning with this. And I started to think about our whole relationship. I realized that you were going away from me, that you built a distance between you and me that I couldn't overcome.”
Now he was standing in front of me and I could feel his light breath on my skin.
“What are you trying to say, YoungSaeng?” I asked nervously.
“I wondered, why you acting like this. Maybe I don't find the right reason for it, but I was sure, that this here would make you happy... Somehow..” He smiled again and grabbed both of my hands.
I was confused. So he didn't plan anything, just wanted to make me happy with this?
I felt like crying because he tried his best to give me something. Maybe this was the right time now to confess to him. But I didn't know how to start. Helpless I took him into a close hug.
“I'm so sorry.” I flustered into his ear and he shivered a bit.
“For what?” He asked quietly at my neck.
“That I'm just a coward.”
He wanted to look at me and so I loosened the hug a bit. His eyes were irritated because he couldn't imagine what I was talking about.
I sighed. 'Now or Never!' I told myself.
“YoungSaeng, maybe this is the right time to tell you something.”
His eyes were wide now and I could read fear in them. I tried to smile, but it was surely just weak.
I took a deep breath and then started to talk.
“I love you. I really love you and that for a long time. But I never dared to say so, because I was afraid that you won't like me anymore, that you were disgust of me, so I built this distance, this wall between us.”
Now it was out and I couldn't turn it back. I really was afraid to look at him now. I mean, he did this wonderful thing and I was telling him something which he maybe didn't like.
But then I felt his hand at my cheek, stroking it with such a mildness, that I could hardly hide my tears.
“You're an idiot, KyuJong.” He said softly.”Why should I be disgust because you love me?”
I raised my head to look into his lovely eyes. He was right, there were no disgust or anything else like this. All I could see were his warm eyes and his bright smile.
“So, you're not...”
I couldn't finished my question because his lips stopped me as he kissed me carefully. I was overwhelmed by his taste. I really dreamed about this, kissing the guy in my arms, but I never thought that he would taste like this.
When he ended the kiss, I was completely intoxicated. My mind went off and I couldn't help but kissed him again. He softly giggled and pulled me to his bed.
“The candles weren't everything as your gift.” He said with a low voice.
He lay down on his bed and pulled me above him, kissing me again. His tongue poked at my lower lip and I didn't hesitate to open my mouth for him. He entered it immediately and explored it with his tongue. As he was sure to found out anything inside there he poked my own tongue to play with his. And I returned his playful pokes.
My hands were uncontrollable. While we were kissing I moved them down to his body and under his shirt to touch his soft skin. He moaned silently. I ended the kiss and lifted him a bit, so I could undress his shirt. He just smiled and lay down again. He watched me with curious eyes. Did he know how sexy he looked like this? I caught his lips again, while my fingers moved over his chest, stroked over every inch of his skin there and began to pinch his nipples gently.
Again he moaned silently and I knew that he liked it. I stopped the kiss on his lips only to search the way down with them to his neck.
His hands weren't standing still as well. While I was busy with his neck, his hands started to stroked over my back, leaving goose bumps everywhere they touched. I shivered in excitement and bit him into his neck.
“Don't eat me.” He chuckled and I bit him again.
“You're too delicious.” I answered him, but let go of his neck and kissed me down to his nipples where I bit him again.
His moan grew loader now and I was totally addicted to it. It sounded so sexy like he looked. And I knew that I couldn't really wait now anymore. While I was busy with my lips on his nipples, my hands traveled more to the south until they reached his pants. Without hesitation I unbutton it and took it with a little help from YoungSaeng off. While I did this, he quickly sat up and undressed me as well. I smiled a bit because that meant that he was also impatient like me.
As soon as we both were naked he lay down again and pulled me with him. I kissed his lips again, now in full passion and excitement and he returned it like that as well. I moved a bit with my hips and let out a grown because I touched his member with my own. Now I really couldn't wait.
So I started again my trip to the south with my lips, kissing his neck, his collarbone, bit once again in one of his nipples and go down further. I saw him shiver at my touches and kisses and heard his moans of pleasure. And I was satisfied that he liked the things I gave him. When I placed a kiss on his already hard member he came towards me with his hips.
“More...” He begged while he was panting really hard.
“Your wish is my command.” I replied and took his whole member into my mouth.
I started to suck at it and didn't wait to do it slowly. We needed it fast, that was a thing I was totally sure about. His groans were now loader and faster than ever and I moved with one hand to his butt and caress it a while. I stopped my work on his member and pushed me up to him to look into his eyes.
“I will be gentle, promise.” I said huskily and he nodded dazed.
I kissed his lips again, poked his lower lip with my tongue and slid my tongue into his mouth as he opened it. With this deviation I slowly entered my first finger into him and waited some seconds. He showed no reaction of pain and I started to move it gently in him. When I was sure he was used to it, I added a second finger so I could stretched him slowly and carefully. But I couldn't concentrate on this any longer, because YoungSaeng moved in full excitement in front of me and this sight really pushed me up.
I took my fingers off him and brought me into the right position above him. Again I kissed him for deflection and started to slid into him slowly and carefully. This time he winced a bit in pain and I waited until he showed me to go on. When my whole length were inside him I waited again so he could get used of me.
Then I started to move slowly inside him, even if I couldn't hold it anymore. But I didn't want to hurt him so I concentrated for the first moves. A load and uncontrollable moan caught my attention and I tried to find the same spot again to hit against it. Another groan confirmed me that I hit the right spot inside him and I smiled. There was his weak point.
We both were panting really hard now and my thrusts were faster than before. When I was sure, it didn't take long any more until I reached my climax, I reached for his member and pumped it in the same rhythm as my thrusts.
And it only took a few more thrust and pumps as his grabbed my shoulder and then came right in my hand. And because of his coming I was so excited that I came right after him with a load groan.
Exhausted I took myself out of him and lay down next to him. He clung to me automatically and I put my arms around me.
For a while we only listened to our heartbeats and our breaths to be normal again.
“Best Christmas ever.” He said silently and I had to smile.
He was right, this was the best Christmas ever in my whole life.
“Merry Christmas.” I answered and kissed him on his forehead.