The future
I'm worried about the future, and whether I can continue to exist as is, since the public assistance I live on's being scrutinized and likely going to be canceled in the next decade.
They will be hunting the homeless for sport, soon as our new overlords cut all public assistance... I'll be one of the homeless, might as well tattoo a target over my heart right now so they don't miss. /exaggeration
I've tried unsuccessfully to get a job for over a year, before you call me lazy. No money for school, no job without experience, no experience without a job. lovely. Not only that I'm supporting my laid off mother partially, and at times I don't have a lot to eat. exactly how's this all supposed to help me or Mom when there is even less jobs?
I know I did splurge a bit for my blackberry, but I've been so depressed lately with my bike being stolen, and haveing a resurgence of my phobia of people. Plus my computer is getting old, my cell was getting old, and my Mp3 player was acting up and not charging half the time, and if I lose my internet on the compy I can stay connected to my support network via the phone, otherwise I'm going to probably end up psychotic with loneliness due to my social ineptness. I need my friends, yo. I just can't connect in person to people very easily. My last friend here moved away. (he's returning, but I doubt he'll find an apartment right away)
I keep trying to get a job so I can support myself and get off SSI someday, because I know that I'm probably one of the first to get the boot, despite documented mental illness, and a deep fear of other people, especially unfamiliar male people.
Mom's even worse off. she's middle aged and has a felony on record, which makes her almost unhirable. her steady job that hadn't ever laid anyone off LAID HER OFF. She and I are last in line for any job we try to get basically. Now they want to chop unemployment extensions, at a time where she REALLY needs it. We're all barely hanging on as it is. if I have to get rid of the internet and so on for a while and just give her the money i will do it because that's how much I love my mom.
Foodshelf donations are lower than ever, and more and more people need them, like me and Mom. You might as well hunt the needy and spare them the misery if you aren't gonna help and just yak about how the needy are actually riding the gravy train. I know I'd like someone to put me out of mine, if I ended up on the streets.
“By being inattentive to the needs of others, inevitably we end up harming them.” - Dalai Lama
on the bright side I can start an all Autistic Spectrum Disorder Street gang called The Spergs and raise some hell...
They will be hunting the homeless for sport, soon as our new overlords cut all public assistance... I'll be one of the homeless, might as well tattoo a target over my heart right now so they don't miss. /exaggeration
I've tried unsuccessfully to get a job for over a year, before you call me lazy. No money for school, no job without experience, no experience without a job. lovely. Not only that I'm supporting my laid off mother partially, and at times I don't have a lot to eat. exactly how's this all supposed to help me or Mom when there is even less jobs?
I know I did splurge a bit for my blackberry, but I've been so depressed lately with my bike being stolen, and haveing a resurgence of my phobia of people. Plus my computer is getting old, my cell was getting old, and my Mp3 player was acting up and not charging half the time, and if I lose my internet on the compy I can stay connected to my support network via the phone, otherwise I'm going to probably end up psychotic with loneliness due to my social ineptness. I need my friends, yo. I just can't connect in person to people very easily. My last friend here moved away. (he's returning, but I doubt he'll find an apartment right away)
I keep trying to get a job so I can support myself and get off SSI someday, because I know that I'm probably one of the first to get the boot, despite documented mental illness, and a deep fear of other people, especially unfamiliar male people.
Mom's even worse off. she's middle aged and has a felony on record, which makes her almost unhirable. her steady job that hadn't ever laid anyone off LAID HER OFF. She and I are last in line for any job we try to get basically. Now they want to chop unemployment extensions, at a time where she REALLY needs it. We're all barely hanging on as it is. if I have to get rid of the internet and so on for a while and just give her the money i will do it because that's how much I love my mom.
Foodshelf donations are lower than ever, and more and more people need them, like me and Mom. You might as well hunt the needy and spare them the misery if you aren't gonna help and just yak about how the needy are actually riding the gravy train. I know I'd like someone to put me out of mine, if I ended up on the streets.
“By being inattentive to the needs of others, inevitably we end up harming them.” - Dalai Lama
on the bright side I can start an all Autistic Spectrum Disorder Street gang called The Spergs and raise some hell...