Toughing it out....
Heh been a little while since I've updated... nothing new much has happened since I last posted. Just been busy hitting the gym and either I lift weights with Don or play Racquetball with Matt or the suitemates. Semester is almost over and I feel like it went by quick again I'm doing alright in my classes though I definitely can do better. Just gotta tough it out and do decent on Finals and hopefully pull a good GPA and start working on getting things back in order. I'm officially a Civil Engineering major now and I start my CE courses next semester. It's definitely going to be rough.... Mondays and Wednesdays off but Friday night class and Saturday day class is definitely going to make it annoying especially considering the Military shit I do. O well gotta do what you gotta do.
On another note, emotionally this entire year I've been a wreck riding on a rollercoaster with a so many ups and downs it's hard to even keep up with my own thoughts and feelings anymore.... The fact that in the back of my head I know I can go to Iraq and might not come back also dwells on me each day. This year has been so rough and still I haven't broken down and I don't know why. I'm so utterly sick of people passing away and me always being the last to know and not being able to spend time with them before they leave my life... I guess thats why I always feel so alone and unwanted by others... even by some of my friends.
This new song by Incubus off their Light Grenades album has been stuck in my head ever since I've heard it. It's the new background song and here's the lyrics. Maybe you'll understand why I like it if you listen and read.
Incubus - Dig
We all have a weakness
But some of ours are easy to identify. Look me in the eye
And ask for forgiveness
We'll make a pact to never speak that word again.
Yes, you are my friend.
We all have something that digs at us,
at least we dig each other.
So when weakness turns my ego up
I know you'll count on the me from yesterday.
If I turn into another
dig me up from under what is covering
the better part of me.
Sing this song
remind me that we'll always have each other
when everything else is gone.
We all have a sickness
that cleverly attaches and multiplies
No matter how we try.
We all have someone that digs at us,
at least we dig each other.
So when sickness turns my ego up
I know you'll act as a clever medicine.
If I turn into another
dig me up from under what is covering
The better part of me.
Sing this song!
Remind me that we'll always have each other
when everything else is gone.
Oh, each other when everything else is gone
No
Oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh
If I turn into another
dig me up from under what is covering
the better part of me.
Sing this song
remind me that we'll always have each other
when everything else is gone.
Oh, each other when everything else is gone
Oh, each other when everything else is gone
Till the next time, ja'ne~
On another note, emotionally this entire year I've been a wreck riding on a rollercoaster with a so many ups and downs it's hard to even keep up with my own thoughts and feelings anymore.... The fact that in the back of my head I know I can go to Iraq and might not come back also dwells on me each day. This year has been so rough and still I haven't broken down and I don't know why. I'm so utterly sick of people passing away and me always being the last to know and not being able to spend time with them before they leave my life... I guess thats why I always feel so alone and unwanted by others... even by some of my friends.
This new song by Incubus off their Light Grenades album has been stuck in my head ever since I've heard it. It's the new background song and here's the lyrics. Maybe you'll understand why I like it if you listen and read.
Incubus - Dig
We all have a weakness
But some of ours are easy to identify. Look me in the eye
And ask for forgiveness
We'll make a pact to never speak that word again.
Yes, you are my friend.
We all have something that digs at us,
at least we dig each other.
So when weakness turns my ego up
I know you'll count on the me from yesterday.
If I turn into another
dig me up from under what is covering
the better part of me.
Sing this song
remind me that we'll always have each other
when everything else is gone.
We all have a sickness
that cleverly attaches and multiplies
No matter how we try.
We all have someone that digs at us,
at least we dig each other.
So when sickness turns my ego up
I know you'll act as a clever medicine.
If I turn into another
dig me up from under what is covering
The better part of me.
Sing this song!
Remind me that we'll always have each other
when everything else is gone.
Oh, each other when everything else is gone
No
Oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh
If I turn into another
dig me up from under what is covering
the better part of me.
Sing this song
remind me that we'll always have each other
when everything else is gone.
Oh, each other when everything else is gone
Oh, each other when everything else is gone
Till the next time, ja'ne~