And this is where I run to...
So yeah my LJ is the place I run to when I don't want to post on Xanga or leave some weird away message up on my AIM. Because very few people know of my LJ and the ones who do or even read it are either friends or people that just happened to add me by some random chance. I seriously need my head evaluated by a shrink or something because motivation is really lacking in me right now and it's completely and blatantly obvious. I'm trying to get it back and struggling to apply it back to my work ethic whether it be working out in the gym or in academics. I've been doing alright so far but alright is not where I want my academic level to be because thats not what makes a successful person. I want my drive and I want to live up to my aspirations of myself and striving to be better and always do better than I did before if I did only subpar. I don't know whats with me and it's starting to scare me cuz I don't know if I can bring myself back. I can't give up though I've gotten this far now I gotta take it further and beyond somehow. I'll find way.... I have to.