Okay, it's been long enough
I have to write this down before I die.
I don't mean to suggest that I'm dying soon. I just wrote what I felt. ANYWAY...
So I'm talking to God one night, and through come to realization about His nature. Not the first I've had, but as you might suppose (what, with Him being God and all), they are all immensely profound.
The realization was twofold, or even threefold. Like a said, not surprising.
Firstly, I realized that God does not need me for anything. At all. If I chose to turn away from him, he would find someone else to do the things he has planned for me. He is completely able to do without me.
Secondly... He wants me. Anyway. He wants me with all of His heart, with all of his being. This follows naturally into the third part: Since God is perfect in everything, and is love incarnate, that means that everything, in turn, is made perfect in God. Case in point: desire. When God desires something it is a holy and beautiful thing, a desire so pure and flawless, so unimaginably strong and encompassing... a desire beyond human comprehension.
Think of what you desire most in life, and multiply your desire exponentially to infinity. The result is but a paltry attempt at scratching the surface of how much God wants you. Everyone in the world, He desires with that same strength and perfection, even those people who deserve Hell.
And I'll say it again... He doesn't need any of us for anything. He didn't have to create the world. But he did, so that he could love me.
Made me want to cry, actually. Then I felt something I had never felt before--a huge, enthusiastic desire to know more and more about God... even just writing this, I feel like I'm realizing it all over again.
The other thing I had to do was share it. Now that I have, I can't believe I waited this long. And I can't wait until the next time He chooses to reveal a part of Himself to me.
I don't mean to suggest that I'm dying soon. I just wrote what I felt. ANYWAY...
So I'm talking to God one night, and through come to realization about His nature. Not the first I've had, but as you might suppose (what, with Him being God and all), they are all immensely profound.
The realization was twofold, or even threefold. Like a said, not surprising.
Firstly, I realized that God does not need me for anything. At all. If I chose to turn away from him, he would find someone else to do the things he has planned for me. He is completely able to do without me.
Secondly... He wants me. Anyway. He wants me with all of His heart, with all of his being. This follows naturally into the third part: Since God is perfect in everything, and is love incarnate, that means that everything, in turn, is made perfect in God. Case in point: desire. When God desires something it is a holy and beautiful thing, a desire so pure and flawless, so unimaginably strong and encompassing... a desire beyond human comprehension.
Think of what you desire most in life, and multiply your desire exponentially to infinity. The result is but a paltry attempt at scratching the surface of how much God wants you. Everyone in the world, He desires with that same strength and perfection, even those people who deserve Hell.
And I'll say it again... He doesn't need any of us for anything. He didn't have to create the world. But he did, so that he could love me.
Made me want to cry, actually. Then I felt something I had never felt before--a huge, enthusiastic desire to know more and more about God... even just writing this, I feel like I'm realizing it all over again.
The other thing I had to do was share it. Now that I have, I can't believe I waited this long. And I can't wait until the next time He chooses to reveal a part of Himself to me.