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It's been an insane month...I don't have a computer and I'm at the library and I feel like everyone is reading over my shoulders which makes me nervous. But I feel like I need to update this. My brothers wife read my journal and is kicking me out. I move into student housing on Oct. 1st. I almost got fired. Missy is in a comma. Todays a week since shes been in a comma. She got kicked in the chest by her horse. Her heart stopped. Hey lung is collappsed. It's so hard not being able to be there. In a weird way I feel like I have failed her. Hallie is there all the time. I don't like Hallie. I'm afraid since she's there everyday that I might get replaced when this is all done and over with. When she wakes up. Missy is to strong to not wake up. I will be there next weekend and I hope to god she is awake. I don't think I could handle her not responding to me. Just...sleeping...It's going to be hard.
Tomorrow morning I am flying to Oregon and staying with Matt until Tuesday. It was such a last minute plan. It still hasn't really set it. After all these years we are actually going to see each other. He's crazy about me. I'm just eh about it all. Since I have moved out here I have gotten an insane amount of attention from guys and quite honestly, I like it. I want to play the field. Plus, he's going back over seas. I don't want to do that long distance crap with him again. With anyone. It's going to be nice to get away though. Go somewhere I've never been. I love traveling.
Tomorrow morning I am flying to Oregon and staying with Matt until Tuesday. It was such a last minute plan. It still hasn't really set it. After all these years we are actually going to see each other. He's crazy about me. I'm just eh about it all. Since I have moved out here I have gotten an insane amount of attention from guys and quite honestly, I like it. I want to play the field. Plus, he's going back over seas. I don't want to do that long distance crap with him again. With anyone. It's going to be nice to get away though. Go somewhere I've never been. I love traveling.