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last night was leaf's suprise party. it was really fun.
i wasn't part of the planning.. no one told me until everything was ready. i would have liked to be a part of that, but it's cool because they did an awesome job. then the girls slept at ali's i think.. the only thing that bothered me last night is when anyone ever brings up the situation from freshman year when i left carly and melissa. like i don't regret it every day of my life, it makes me feel like shit. i made a mistake, and every day that that mistake was continued, i knew, and i hated it even then. these are my best friends in the world and i don't know what i'd do without them. i know they all have a bond and i mean i may not be in on all of the action but i would love to be. i want to feel like i'm there for good and for good use.
last night was fun though, and i love those girls more than i could ever say to anyone. and i know they love me too it's just hard to have that brought up again. even if it is just messing around.
i'm glad they all really approve of bob, too. can't keep a boy around if they don't. god he means so much to me. and they like him and he likes them and it makes it that much better and me that much happier. i've been so happy lately, it's so weird.
we're all going to the show tonight, i'm exicted for that. alyssa's coming too :)
!! melissa meehan is my prom date !!
oh man, we're going to be the hottest there and we're going to slow dance too and everyone will want us because we're ballas. i'm so excited to go now because all of the girls are going ahhh !! woo !! i love hanging out with all the girls it's the most fun i ever have.
oh man, last night was really fun though. there are so many funny pictures. maybe i'll post them another day.
[carly.melissa.melissa.ali., my best friends, thank you girls for being there, i love you so much.]
ps. aparently, it's my doing that put joe in a position to feel he has "nothing else to live for" and started doing dope again.
hello. it's not my fault. he's an idiot and there's no stopping him. his loss.
pps. i still love bob. a lot.
ppps. it's good i didn't sleep anywhere, anyway. because i ended up at home earlier, which means i'll be able to do a lot more tonight :) wooo wooo so excited for another awesome night.