To Fish and Amanda
Alright guys look. Amanda I do appreciate what you're doing for me and I love you for it. But I've had enough. I didn't erase it because I didn't want people reading I didn't erase it because "the truth hurts" I erased it because I said what I had to say. Sorry if I was being childish. Shit happens. Whether you hate me or not. I care about you. Its as simple as that. I care about the both of you and I dont want anymore fighting.
Fish, you already told me you wanted to forget that I exsisted so why arent you doing that? I'm sorry if it takes me a while to forget about someone that I've been talking to since like May. It might be easy for you to erase people out of your life but me, I can't do that. Sorry. Thats just the way it is. What happened was fucked up on both our parts. We had a lack of communications ( and please dont get all 5th grade one me and say "I SAID THIS I SAID THAT" because I dont care right now ) Yes sometimes I act like I'm 15 but bailing like you did and not talking about it first that was 15. Like I said. What happened was fucked up. So why not heed your own words and forget I ever exsisted. Obviously thats easy for you which hurts. You didn't have a chance to find out the real me at all. It was too short of time. Time that you cut off. But I'm not trying to place blame. I already said I'm sorry what more do you want? You do make me wanna vomit because I get upset. I get SAD. I'm human. Humans have emotions. I just tend to express mine a little more. I'm sorry that our friendship is over. I am. You're awesome. Ya I'm shitty. I get it. I was tried/hot/aggravated what have you. Ya I bitch moan and complain but you could have told me to shut up. But its all said and done now I just wish you didn't want to banish me from your life. Because I'm still willing to try to make things right... why.. I dont know but I am.
Amanda I love you for being here for me. No one else besides Shelly and Laura have ever been there for me and tried to defend me. And I really really appreciate it I do. But I've had enough. I care about the both of you. Alot. And I fucked up, he fucked up We all fuck up. Just please stop. Its over. Obviously. And he doesnt want anything to do with me anymore so why not just leave it at that. Someday I'll get used to that idea. But until then lets just let it go. Please. If you never do anything else for me ever again just let it be that... just let it go.
I'm sorry. I can only take so much.
Fish, you already told me you wanted to forget that I exsisted so why arent you doing that? I'm sorry if it takes me a while to forget about someone that I've been talking to since like May. It might be easy for you to erase people out of your life but me, I can't do that. Sorry. Thats just the way it is. What happened was fucked up on both our parts. We had a lack of communications ( and please dont get all 5th grade one me and say "I SAID THIS I SAID THAT" because I dont care right now ) Yes sometimes I act like I'm 15 but bailing like you did and not talking about it first that was 15. Like I said. What happened was fucked up. So why not heed your own words and forget I ever exsisted. Obviously thats easy for you which hurts. You didn't have a chance to find out the real me at all. It was too short of time. Time that you cut off. But I'm not trying to place blame. I already said I'm sorry what more do you want? You do make me wanna vomit because I get upset. I get SAD. I'm human. Humans have emotions. I just tend to express mine a little more. I'm sorry that our friendship is over. I am. You're awesome. Ya I'm shitty. I get it. I was tried/hot/aggravated what have you. Ya I bitch moan and complain but you could have told me to shut up. But its all said and done now I just wish you didn't want to banish me from your life. Because I'm still willing to try to make things right... why.. I dont know but I am.
Amanda I love you for being here for me. No one else besides Shelly and Laura have ever been there for me and tried to defend me. And I really really appreciate it I do. But I've had enough. I care about the both of you. Alot. And I fucked up, he fucked up We all fuck up. Just please stop. Its over. Obviously. And he doesnt want anything to do with me anymore so why not just leave it at that. Someday I'll get used to that idea. But until then lets just let it go. Please. If you never do anything else for me ever again just let it be that... just let it go.
I'm sorry. I can only take so much.