wth
saturday: friend's party
sunday: friend's party
monday: stuck in the rain
tuesday: forgot to eat, went into some really weird half-passed out state (omg it was so creepy ide), woke up with that JOLTING BACK TO REALITY FEELING, lost my vitamins, had to cancel plans with a friend, found out i barely even hit 130 on a good day
wednesday: gym, college for some test (askjdnksjdfnksdjfndsfnsdkjfn)
thursday: prolly back to college
friday: gym
saturday: idk yet, prolly gym
sunday: idk yet, i'm out of cigarettes
can I just actually BE in college already.
basically it's said that if I don't get into college this term, I get to move back to the other house w/ my mom's boyfriend
because my grandmother is getting tired of ~supporting me~
(i don't eat or anything, i sit in my corner with my laptop, lolololol. she's basically getting tired of how i actually have a backbone and bother to stand up for myself.)
and we just...like, I don't get along with him, at all huhuhuhuhuhuhuhu.
so the plus side:
-basically living alone
-i won't have to deal with irl crap from ~friends~
-my own room n______n
-can do interior-decorating to it and crap
-my full-sized bed
-my 10 stuffed animals
-gets to blast music at all times of the days!!!!
-get to see my cat again~ (despite having allergies)
downside
-my eating problems will come back, worse than they already have
-i'll ~kind~ of be lonely
-won't get to eat delicious sushi most of the time
-i don't speak spanish (i can comprehend it to a fair degree), and over there is a huge Hispanic population
-possibility their CC doesn't have the courses i want to study, so i'd have to change my major AND my minor >_______>
-wouldn't get to see my mom everyday, so it'd be like ~i don't really have parents~
-would miss my grandfather n_____n
idk, it's kind of a hard choice
i'm gonna bring it up to my mom and just...really, see how it flies.
wow tons of irl stuff pahah