studying
i think my eyeballs are going to pop out of my sockets!! haha
i just got done with studying. and now i'm wide awake. all i can say is that there's going to be one heck of an awesome nap tomorrow after my final.
so i was trying to find my old notes from class today to look up one of the answers and i came upon a note i had written to joel. i explained in the letter how my friend danny told me he would visit (just like joel did) and told him not to break my heart like danny did. i also explained how i don't think i could endure another heart break and another broken promise. man...i was such an idiot!! i mean, first of all, i had full knowlegde that he would never get that note. haha. second of all, i liked him. i knew that i had to put my heart on my sleve and take a chance. i mean, it's common knowledge that when you like someone, you have to be vunerable. and man...was i vunerable. haha...and nieve. but it just goes to show you that i CAN take another heart break...and that i CAN take another broken promise. and i CAN take another lashing from this world. God is so awesome like that. He gave me strength even when i thought that i had none.
praise God.
it's disgusting how disrespectful men are to woman. even friends. why would you not be respectful? your mother is a woman, would you disrespect her? some day, i will be a mother. would you dare disrespect me? yeah, that's what i thought, sucka!! this guy marc a few weeks ago at campus saw josh and i walked to one of the buildings and yelled at the top of his lungs in the middle of a full courtyard, 'LYNN ROBIESON IS A W.HORE!!!!!' and what did my brother do? nothin. he's too much of a nice guy to do anything. haha.
i was talkin to a friend about how i get really scared when i open up. and i don't mean like, deepest darkestest secrets...but just be an open, honest friend. i mean, i know that he is trustworthy. and it is by all means nothing against him. it's just that i've been here before. i've been this connected in a friendship before. and they turned around and stabbed me in the back. it's just scary and new. man...i sound so emo. hahahaha
my mom told me today that my family and i are going to spend the weekend at the hilton suits (like we do every year, hahaha) at oakbrook the 30th. so y'all are welcome to come and play games, watch movies, and swim if you want. it'd actually be really fun...no, really. =D
...i said y'all.
no ones ganna read this cause it's oooober long, but that's ok. i'm enjoying reading my thoughts as i type them (along with fixing my tyops...)
i've been lossing weight lately because i think i'm getting sick. i just don't have an appitite. and yes, i understand that most chicks would be like, 'WOOO!!!' but not me. this isn't healthy. i've been anerexic without knowing it because i just wasn't hungry. so although the smell of food makes my stomach churn...i eat anyways hopeing the only other time i see it is in the pot. hahaha i'm so discriptive i'm awesome
i bought a new blanket sunday. it's leopord print and fuzzzzzzzzzy. and waaaaaaaaaaaaaarm. mmmmmmmmm
speaking of warm, i'm extreemly cold. so i'm ganna go and try and sleep.
...maybe i'll have something worth writting tomorrow.
...i'm still not tired.
"FOR A BETTER TOMORROW
WE'LL START WITH TODAY
WITH ALL THE THINGS WE DO
AND ALL THE THINGS WE SAY"
in the face of war
i just got done with studying. and now i'm wide awake. all i can say is that there's going to be one heck of an awesome nap tomorrow after my final.
so i was trying to find my old notes from class today to look up one of the answers and i came upon a note i had written to joel. i explained in the letter how my friend danny told me he would visit (just like joel did) and told him not to break my heart like danny did. i also explained how i don't think i could endure another heart break and another broken promise. man...i was such an idiot!! i mean, first of all, i had full knowlegde that he would never get that note. haha. second of all, i liked him. i knew that i had to put my heart on my sleve and take a chance. i mean, it's common knowledge that when you like someone, you have to be vunerable. and man...was i vunerable. haha...and nieve. but it just goes to show you that i CAN take another heart break...and that i CAN take another broken promise. and i CAN take another lashing from this world. God is so awesome like that. He gave me strength even when i thought that i had none.
praise God.
it's disgusting how disrespectful men are to woman. even friends. why would you not be respectful? your mother is a woman, would you disrespect her? some day, i will be a mother. would you dare disrespect me? yeah, that's what i thought, sucka!! this guy marc a few weeks ago at campus saw josh and i walked to one of the buildings and yelled at the top of his lungs in the middle of a full courtyard, 'LYNN ROBIESON IS A W.HORE!!!!!' and what did my brother do? nothin. he's too much of a nice guy to do anything. haha.
i was talkin to a friend about how i get really scared when i open up. and i don't mean like, deepest darkestest secrets...but just be an open, honest friend. i mean, i know that he is trustworthy. and it is by all means nothing against him. it's just that i've been here before. i've been this connected in a friendship before. and they turned around and stabbed me in the back. it's just scary and new. man...i sound so emo. hahahaha
my mom told me today that my family and i are going to spend the weekend at the hilton suits (like we do every year, hahaha) at oakbrook the 30th. so y'all are welcome to come and play games, watch movies, and swim if you want. it'd actually be really fun...no, really. =D
...i said y'all.
no ones ganna read this cause it's oooober long, but that's ok. i'm enjoying reading my thoughts as i type them (along with fixing my tyops...)
i've been lossing weight lately because i think i'm getting sick. i just don't have an appitite. and yes, i understand that most chicks would be like, 'WOOO!!!' but not me. this isn't healthy. i've been anerexic without knowing it because i just wasn't hungry. so although the smell of food makes my stomach churn...i eat anyways hopeing the only other time i see it is in the pot. hahaha i'm so discriptive i'm awesome
i bought a new blanket sunday. it's leopord print and fuzzzzzzzzzy. and waaaaaaaaaaaaaarm. mmmmmmmmm
speaking of warm, i'm extreemly cold. so i'm ganna go and try and sleep.
...maybe i'll have something worth writting tomorrow.
...i'm still not tired.
"FOR A BETTER TOMORROW
WE'LL START WITH TODAY
WITH ALL THE THINGS WE DO
AND ALL THE THINGS WE SAY"
in the face of war