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The more replies I get to my personal ads on master/slave and bdsm sites the more I am realizing I need to get into shape BEFORE looking for someone like this. Just about every dom I have been contacted by either doesnt fully understand the reasoning behind me wanting to transform myself into my gargoyle form, or wants me to stay as fat as I am now which aint going to work! So the more I go along with talking with them the more I am realizing the only way I am goign to beable to lead the lifestyle I want is to get into shape First.
I'll probably have to move away from this shithole to accomplish this though, which brings me to another problem I am having. my mother needs my help, however the way she has been treating me and acting towards me when we are out of stuff is getting to REALLY be to the point of being unacceptable. Every time I confront her about this she gets even MORE pissy and goes "dont you DARE talk to me that way". She is not being a 'normal' mother. She still thinks that I am her 10 y/o son and still can say what I can and cant do. I'm going to feel EXTREAMLY guilty for leaving if I move away becuase I know that without me she will likely not have any power, heat/cooling, or water the way her job is going. I'm attempting to work on getting her a different job but she really isnt putting near as much effort into it as I did looking for a job before I got this mcdonalds job. I'm nearinfg the very end of my rope and I do not know what the fuck to do!!!!
I would add more but I have to start getting ready to open mchell up. gotta run.
I'll probably have to move away from this shithole to accomplish this though, which brings me to another problem I am having. my mother needs my help, however the way she has been treating me and acting towards me when we are out of stuff is getting to REALLY be to the point of being unacceptable. Every time I confront her about this she gets even MORE pissy and goes "dont you DARE talk to me that way". She is not being a 'normal' mother. She still thinks that I am her 10 y/o son and still can say what I can and cant do. I'm going to feel EXTREAMLY guilty for leaving if I move away becuase I know that without me she will likely not have any power, heat/cooling, or water the way her job is going. I'm attempting to work on getting her a different job but she really isnt putting near as much effort into it as I did looking for a job before I got this mcdonalds job. I'm nearinfg the very end of my rope and I do not know what the fuck to do!!!!
I would add more but I have to start getting ready to open mchell up. gotta run.