Comments | knownunsoldier: kinda looks like a lumberjack

knownunsoldier

kinda looks like a lumberjack

Jul 18, 2004 03:24

so much has happend since my last post. feels like a year ago... just a few weeks. the people are more itense they all want my time and i feel like i basically cant give it too them. i know it just from the people i love but i feel insecure about the choices we make and the lies we tell despite being eachothers friends and partners in crime... ( Read more... )

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r3dh3adfromh311 July 18 2004, 04:17:40 UTC

We are soooo mortal, Parker. Two boys I knew died this week... That's too much. Waaay too much. Youth is no longer a beginning. What have we become?

wow... kdancie04 July 18 2004, 17:22:04 UTC

parker- wow- i dont even know what to say- i knew him too, not that closely but i bet that hurts more than anyone could explain... that kinda makes me feel sick- kinda just hearing it, kinda for how much it must hurt you...but mostly, because i know that you are becoming more & more enwrapped into that lifestyle (although what do i know about you lately- since we're both so busy) and reading this scares the shit out of me because i care too much about you to see that happen to you- you are an awesome person (esp. sober) & i'd hate to see you wither away- im not trying to lecture you or tell you what not to do because we all do/have done stupid shit- just know that enough people love you the way you are & mostly they love you alive- i do-

r3dh3adfromh311 July 19 2004, 10:28:54 UTC

Are you sure thats how he died? How do you know? I think he may have been found on some of my boy friends family's property. The news paper said near Kansas and Dakota in an orchard. They own a ranch on Kasas and Dakota with orchards. And it would be really odd seeing that Aaron's (my bf's dad) shot himself in the head three years ago this month on that property.

and you're constantly surrounded by the swirling stream of what is and what was- kdancie04 July 20 2004, 23:18:04 UTC

this doesnt haveta do with your entry although i s'pose in a way it could..but everytime i look @ your friends page & see the title "and you're constantly surrounded by the swirling stream of what is and what was" it really depresses me but its so true- im not complaining- just noticed-

O...Lover!!! :-( anonymous July 23 2004, 00:06:51 UTC

My Parker! I feel so bad for you! I've never lost anyone really, but I can just imagine what you're going through. I know that nothing I can say will really help, so...just know that I love you bunches and you can always talk to me whenever you need to (@ rehearsals or after/before). You can even call at like 3:00am if you want! :-) I don't know what your religious beliefs are or what not, but just know that I think he's in a better place. When things get really bad, sometimes I'm jealous of the angels in heaven...and now he's one of them. <@ least that's what I'd like to think I LOVE YOU PAL! See you tomorrow @ rehearsal! Hang in there!