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i just found out all my "old friends" apparently talk about me like im this shitty person you should avoid at all costs. what the fuck? i wasn't allowed names or anything, just the knowledge that "they" think im shitty and that i have to just figure out on my own who it is. I'd like to think this person was just lying to me, that people wouldn't talk about me like that without talking to me like that. It just really fucken hurts to hear that. Like, what the fuck! Why would you tell someone "people" are talking shit about them and not tell them who those "people" are? If its not true, are we 12!? NO we are going on 30!
I guess I'm just weirded out because one of my old friends sent my boyfriend a nasty text about me last night and it just felt.. real. I know not everyone is this enlightened saint of a being, but seriously, shit-talking at 27? Is that necessary? I think as grown ups we can all handle hearing "you are a butt sometimes, dude" and whatever. No need to freak out when someone calls you on your shit, no need to say nasty shit about your friends behind their backs.
The truth is though that none of that is in my control or has anything to do with me. Its just little people who are insecure trying to tear other people down to make themselves feel better. It just hurts to realize that petty grade school shit is true, and for some people, never goes away.
I think I will just take some time and space and make sure I am treating my good friends extra awesome!
I guess I'm just weirded out because one of my old friends sent my boyfriend a nasty text about me last night and it just felt.. real. I know not everyone is this enlightened saint of a being, but seriously, shit-talking at 27? Is that necessary? I think as grown ups we can all handle hearing "you are a butt sometimes, dude" and whatever. No need to freak out when someone calls you on your shit, no need to say nasty shit about your friends behind their backs.
The truth is though that none of that is in my control or has anything to do with me. Its just little people who are insecure trying to tear other people down to make themselves feel better. It just hurts to realize that petty grade school shit is true, and for some people, never goes away.
I think I will just take some time and space and make sure I am treating my good friends extra awesome!