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Winter makes me wish I could buy character attributes at a personality outlet store. It seems like everyone I know feels like they are falling apart. Maybe not. I might go watch dillinger and hella tomarrow night, I don't know actually.
It's been over 6 months since I've used, not including alcohol and smoking a couple times, but I'm still proud of myself. I have sooo many goals for riding my bike and school. I feel like I have a chance to finally use my potential now that I'm not chained down by that fucked up shit anymore. I stiil have drugs on my mind all of the time. But instead of constantly thinking about ways to get shit, I'm constantly thinking about ways to stay away from it. I feel like people don't really understand. Especially kids who are just beginning to experiment with drugs and don't REALLY know me. For those kids it's just something to do one weekend 'cause someone had something, or you and a friend thought you would just have some fun. That is a completely different perception on drugs than I have, and a growing reason why I don't associate with people outside of my daily life much. It's not worth it. I have made it too far to risk it because some old friend from high school wants to chill. I'm sorry.
Well anyways.........enough of that.
Fuckin' sweet everett session yesterday. I think my buddy paul is gonna blow up in the bmx scene soon.
I was really looking forward to riding everett today but it's fucking raining.
At least I got Alyssa.
It's been over 6 months since I've used, not including alcohol and smoking a couple times, but I'm still proud of myself. I have sooo many goals for riding my bike and school. I feel like I have a chance to finally use my potential now that I'm not chained down by that fucked up shit anymore. I stiil have drugs on my mind all of the time. But instead of constantly thinking about ways to get shit, I'm constantly thinking about ways to stay away from it. I feel like people don't really understand. Especially kids who are just beginning to experiment with drugs and don't REALLY know me. For those kids it's just something to do one weekend 'cause someone had something, or you and a friend thought you would just have some fun. That is a completely different perception on drugs than I have, and a growing reason why I don't associate with people outside of my daily life much. It's not worth it. I have made it too far to risk it because some old friend from high school wants to chill. I'm sorry.
Well anyways.........enough of that.
Fuckin' sweet everett session yesterday. I think my buddy paul is gonna blow up in the bmx scene soon.
I was really looking forward to riding everett today but it's fucking raining.
At least I got Alyssa.