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Fuckin' shit I'm addicted to this computer screen now. I never thought this would happen. At least I don't have a myspace. My ankle has to heal soon. I'm dying to ride my bike. Anthony got hooked up with federal bike company I guess. That's awesome. I just got back from shari's. I managed to be an asshole again. I think I have too much caffiene in my system and now I feel kinda sketchy.
God I keep going blank when I'm trying to explain shit, or even think about shit. Today in shari's I was talking about how you can recive unemployment for really wierd stuff and I couldn't think of the term "post-truamatic stress disorder." It got to me soooo bad. It was wierd. It's funny how such little things can get to you the most.
I really want to travel. I have no money so it's impossible, but it would be awesome to go somewhere really hot over the winter.
Making it through this injury and not fucking myself up has been the hardest part of the last 4 months. It's just hard when I'm not doing anything. I'm someone who has to be doing something or have someting in the day to look forward to. I think that's what it is. I'm not sure, maybe it's just that I need entertainment or something. But anyways.......in a nutshell...if I'm not on my bike making something out of myself, I'm usually strung out. I'm just really proud of myself i guess.
God I feel stupider and stupider every day though. Or more and more stupid.......whatever. Maybe it's the radiation comming off this fucking thing infront of me. Or the lack of oxygen I'm getting to my brain 'cause my body is used to more exercise. Or you guys are just fucking with me! You guys get together on the weekends have a new idea you try to hint to me every week. Slight gestures here and there. You see it in my eyes when my thoughts speed up as I get the signals. I'm putting everything together now. I know what you are doing.
Just joking. I don't think that. I don't know anything. I swear I've never been here before.
God paraniod people are funny sometimes.
I'm only getting a climps of my edge every once in a while. I kinda miss it. I'm been a little to monotone and tranquil lately.
Fuck bed time. Night night.
God I keep going blank when I'm trying to explain shit, or even think about shit. Today in shari's I was talking about how you can recive unemployment for really wierd stuff and I couldn't think of the term "post-truamatic stress disorder." It got to me soooo bad. It was wierd. It's funny how such little things can get to you the most.
I really want to travel. I have no money so it's impossible, but it would be awesome to go somewhere really hot over the winter.
Making it through this injury and not fucking myself up has been the hardest part of the last 4 months. It's just hard when I'm not doing anything. I'm someone who has to be doing something or have someting in the day to look forward to. I think that's what it is. I'm not sure, maybe it's just that I need entertainment or something. But anyways.......in a nutshell...if I'm not on my bike making something out of myself, I'm usually strung out. I'm just really proud of myself i guess.
God I feel stupider and stupider every day though. Or more and more stupid.......whatever. Maybe it's the radiation comming off this fucking thing infront of me. Or the lack of oxygen I'm getting to my brain 'cause my body is used to more exercise. Or you guys are just fucking with me! You guys get together on the weekends have a new idea you try to hint to me every week. Slight gestures here and there. You see it in my eyes when my thoughts speed up as I get the signals. I'm putting everything together now. I know what you are doing.
Just joking. I don't think that. I don't know anything. I swear I've never been here before.
God paraniod people are funny sometimes.
I'm only getting a climps of my edge every once in a while. I kinda miss it. I'm been a little to monotone and tranquil lately.
Fuck bed time. Night night.