cuz i thought you'd listen

[know_now_then]

i was searching for answers
and i only found more questions
the hows the whys and the what fors
have all fallen on deaf ears
and my eyes have only managed to see
all of my fears

i called you cuz i thought you would listen
and for two years i chased the dream
then to wake up
with a start
like i jumped out of my night mare
unable to trust
left weak and scared
just to watch myself walk up your stairs
one final time
and have the screen fade to black
on our final scene
and watch as the credits roll

you always wanted it to play out like a movie
so i guess you got your way
playing the role so well
you had everyone fooled
and you had me to love you
and you kept me around
for when you needed me

it was you
always calling the shots
so how does it feel now
now that you say you miss me
and i dont say it back
now that i just tell you to prove it
and expect
and rightly so
that you won't
i wont hold my breath for the call
we all know i would die before it came

i've learned to expect nothing from you
nothing more than this
nothing more than being alone
an alone i've gotten used to

i called you
cuz i thought you'd listen