fic - "you and i, learning to speak."

[knotweed]

you and i, learning to speak.
PG-13 · 8408 words · EXO
Baekhyun/Chanyeol

Chanyeol leaves the country to find himself, Baekhyun doesn't know how much he needs Chanyeol until he does, and none of his friends give him good advice. AU, established relationship.

note: Largely inspired by my psychotic text post full of revelations on Tumblr, idek

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[knotweed]

no suicide via staircase please!!

i saved your comment for last because there is so much going on and it was way too early in the morning to think... well, it's still too early (at least for summer vacation!) but you get the point...

you know, by the time i got to the halfway mark (right around the stargazing at the park for the first time after their first date) i was 4000 words in and ready to be done with everything! like it had been about three and a half years, almost four, since i've written anything worthwhile and the feeling of being finished is like the Best Feeling Ever and i was ready to go for a sad ending until i really remembered where i was trying to go with this fic (admittedly it started out funny and then... really ended up not being funny at all.......). as for chanyeol maybe not loving bh as bh loves cy, i think he does but can't say it out loud... but i don't think that read very well in fic from bh's pov probs!! :(

i've been saying this everywhere in peoples' threads but i think some people are when it comes to relationships -- maybe not on purpose, but sometimes even though they love each other they take too much and give too little... whether what i wrote is a poisonous relationship or not i wouldn't know because i've never been in one lmao??????? ;; i just make bs up about people it's Great... but they're going off of their feelings and emotions and sometimes it's not always accurate and whether or not they end up together happily ever after... well, i don't know!! but i do know they have a lot to mend before they really feel comfortable with each other again, and maybe it's not the best relationship so far but they're growing as they go along.

and for bh/cy dynamic headcanon, you should read ~taoangles@tumblr's compilation post! i think it's a really interesting read -- well, tbh, all her fic is amazing :))

thank you so much for reading! ♥