Finals week
So I'm studying for a test that won't even affect my grade...just for fun. In the end maybe my studying will pay off and it will bring my grade up or something, who knows. All I know is that I better get an A on my english papers or else the C I am going to get in Precalc will bring my GPA down. Damn, this is the second time I've had a math teacher I couldn't understand, he's from Turkey lol. I should have an A, but due to the fact that I don't know what he is teaching, I am not doing so well.
List of Grievances:
I think someone I met on myspace thinks I am their girlfriend...this is not good.
My roommates are getting on my nerves again...and I am powerless against them.
This guy in the building behind me won't leave me alone on AIM and is convinced we should "hang out more".
One of my friends up here is homeless and I want to help him out...but he won't call me back.
I have to get a job when I go home for Christmas break and I don't know where yet.
I don't know how I'm getting back to Tally after break.
My bed gives me back problems and I can't wait to sleep in my real bed back home.
I feel pressured into doing a lot of things right now and can't relax.
Next semester if I pass the PT test I could get a scholarship from ROTC, getting about 10,000 extra dollars, but do I really want to make that commitment?
If I don't keep a 3.0 GPA I won't have Bright Futures anymore, so I would have to be on the ROTC scholarship to stay at FSU, but yet again do I really want to?
In some way I feel like I have been abandoned by all of my friends right now, and that I am away from my family for no real good reason. I wish things in life made more sense. When I go home this time I don't know what to expect, there will be no urgency to hang out with people. I feel like my life is slipping away from me and I am powerless to stop it from so far away. Everyday I regret having crashed my car and making countless other stupid decisions that have led me to my current situation. Hopefully I'll have a bike when I come back so I can get places easier and exercise more at the same time. I feel so divided inside...it hurts.
List of Grievances:
I think someone I met on myspace thinks I am their girlfriend...this is not good.
My roommates are getting on my nerves again...and I am powerless against them.
This guy in the building behind me won't leave me alone on AIM and is convinced we should "hang out more".
One of my friends up here is homeless and I want to help him out...but he won't call me back.
I have to get a job when I go home for Christmas break and I don't know where yet.
I don't know how I'm getting back to Tally after break.
My bed gives me back problems and I can't wait to sleep in my real bed back home.
I feel pressured into doing a lot of things right now and can't relax.
Next semester if I pass the PT test I could get a scholarship from ROTC, getting about 10,000 extra dollars, but do I really want to make that commitment?
If I don't keep a 3.0 GPA I won't have Bright Futures anymore, so I would have to be on the ROTC scholarship to stay at FSU, but yet again do I really want to?
In some way I feel like I have been abandoned by all of my friends right now, and that I am away from my family for no real good reason. I wish things in life made more sense. When I go home this time I don't know what to expect, there will be no urgency to hang out with people. I feel like my life is slipping away from me and I am powerless to stop it from so far away. Everyday I regret having crashed my car and making countless other stupid decisions that have led me to my current situation. Hopefully I'll have a bike when I come back so I can get places easier and exercise more at the same time. I feel so divided inside...it hurts.