Broken

[knottygirlx]

I've got a reason to live for
I've got my own path to take
I've got my own mind and emotions
But a lot of times I feel so fake

This feeling I try to replace
With joy, happiness, or success
But this hole isn't so easy to fill
When your heart is where it manifests

There has long been this gap
Between life now and the life past
And no matter how hard I try
Faking this happiness just won't last

My head begins to pound
My heart begins to ache
Tears flow down my cheeks
Like a broken dams mistake

Thoughts come rushing forth
Bringing back memories that made me fret
A time I try not to remember
A time I try hard to forget

I must get through this pain
I must make it go away
It won't control my life
It needs to disipate