happy easter!:P
so once again home..was here last week too..but it's fun..yeah..had a busy week..went out a freakin lot..go me..had a lot of stupid moments..went to devaneys sunday and tuesday..omg..i was staring at this guy and he was staring at me..and all the sudden (apparently i pointed in his face) i was like, "you were on that show!! yeah..it was the bmoc..his friend just laughed..well..isn't that what he was on there for..whatever..thursday and friday went to tre and underground blues..and kinda cellar..not exactly my cup of tea but i like the people we went out with so it was fun..last night somehow after all of that got talked into going to a party..yeah yeah i wasn't really forced..i didn't mind going at all..it was fun..i was a little bitchy at one point last night and i'm sorry for that..i don't know why you put up with me and my retardedness..i will always be that girl that calls you drunk and i don't mind if you're that guy..it's when i'm drinking and don't call that you should wonder..but yeah..even after everything you said something to me last night that i thought about today..and i couldn't help but run it by my mom..i was asked something along the lines of why do i try so hard to make myself believe that you're not the right guy..i don't know if you'll remember saying it or not:P but i couldn't stop asking myself if that was what i was doing..so i asked my mom..and she said this is the first time she's ever seen me be even somewhat jealous (which as much as i hate to admit it..yeah..i am a little i suppose) and she thinks that this time i really like you and for the first time i'm afraid of being on the dumpee side..and i have to say that after thinking about it, it's not too farfetched..i have tried for awhile to just let it go and not care..but i just don't know how long and if i wanna keep that up..it can't be what i should be doing..but only time will tell..i definitely have a bruise on my finger..how random..but after a long night last night (worth it in the end somehow:)) i think i should go pass out..