what the fuck was i thinking
i am a damn idiot why did i try to hide it i was afraid of what she might think. im terified that shes just gonna walk away from me i was so afraid she hates people lying to her and i did i told her i never did it. mother fucke.r why did i try to hide it. man i have been fucking up so much lately. wow that is fucking amazing. i'm horrible at school been fucking up in everything, me and niki have been up and down for so long i dont know what am doing. man i really feel dumb and i'm so upset right now i don't know what i'm going to do FUCK! i feel like i'm back at school with fucking soph and its kinda fucking aggravating i will not do this again i will not put myself way the fuck out there and have my heart broken again this shit hurts enough.