back by popular demand
So wow, I'm obviously so cool that all these people wanna hear about my boring life and existence.
I'm pretty much still living upstate, in the town where I went to college, and I'm working. No longer at Blockbuster. Back in July, I started working for a Residential School for the Developmentally Disabled and Mentally Retarded and I LOVE IT!
It's pretty much the only thing in my life that's going pretty well at the moment. Everything else is sorta crappy. I've been going through all these ups-and-downs lately. I was totally manic a little more than a month ago where I was in the BEST mood I'd been in in YEARS. And now I'm back to being depressed again. I just want to sleep all the times and do nothing. I'm not motivated to clean my apartment, which is an utter wreck at the moment.
I'm still impossibly single. It's getting ridiculous. For clarification, after reading those old entries, they were written at the beginning when I was starting to hang out with that kid, he called me a "boyfriend" to his sister loooong before we established our relationship, so everything I can remember and recall, we never officially dated. Least as far as I'm concerned. So, I've always been single and will, most likely, continue to be single as long as I'm living up here. There are NO prospects whatsoever. There are straight guys I'm hung up on, and guess what? They're straight so it's just wishful thinking. And then there's the typical Kevin's-in-love-but-we're-just-friends-cus-who-in-their-right-mind-would-actually-be-attracted-to-me-especially-when-they're-perfect-and-smart-and-gorgeous-and-way-out-of-my-league. History always has a way of repeating itself with me. It was the same back in HS when I "liked" girls. We became friends but since we were friends there was no way they could see me in any sort of light to be attracted to me.
Grr.
I mean, I'm not horrible looking. I might be totally crazy but I'm usually a pretty fun person to hang out with and pretty caring. Always willing to go out of my way for people. I guess I have to be a total asshole to get guys to like me or something.
So, this is pretty much the story of my life. Same shit, different day.
I'm pretty much still living upstate, in the town where I went to college, and I'm working. No longer at Blockbuster. Back in July, I started working for a Residential School for the Developmentally Disabled and Mentally Retarded and I LOVE IT!
It's pretty much the only thing in my life that's going pretty well at the moment. Everything else is sorta crappy. I've been going through all these ups-and-downs lately. I was totally manic a little more than a month ago where I was in the BEST mood I'd been in in YEARS. And now I'm back to being depressed again. I just want to sleep all the times and do nothing. I'm not motivated to clean my apartment, which is an utter wreck at the moment.
I'm still impossibly single. It's getting ridiculous. For clarification, after reading those old entries, they were written at the beginning when I was starting to hang out with that kid, he called me a "boyfriend" to his sister loooong before we established our relationship, so everything I can remember and recall, we never officially dated. Least as far as I'm concerned. So, I've always been single and will, most likely, continue to be single as long as I'm living up here. There are NO prospects whatsoever. There are straight guys I'm hung up on, and guess what? They're straight so it's just wishful thinking. And then there's the typical Kevin's-in-love-but-we're-just-friends-cus-who-in-their-right-mind-would-actually-be-attracted-to-me-especially-when-they're-perfect-and-smart-and-gorgeous-and-way-out-of-my-league. History always has a way of repeating itself with me. It was the same back in HS when I "liked" girls. We became friends but since we were friends there was no way they could see me in any sort of light to be attracted to me.
Grr.
I mean, I'm not horrible looking. I might be totally crazy but I'm usually a pretty fun person to hang out with and pretty caring. Always willing to go out of my way for people. I guess I have to be a total asshole to get guys to like me or something.
So, this is pretty much the story of my life. Same shit, different day.