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[knkellygurl]

So as time passed i got my shit together and slowly it began to go downhill. Still i seem to have a small grasp on reality, im slowly slipping. ive hit a few bumps...one being very recent and im definatly aware i shouldnt have done it but i find myself repeating the same shit over and over again all because of the way i feel. depression surely can get to you if you dont deal with it. If you try and hide it or dont completely talk about it. it comes back and bites you in the ass. especially in the last few weeks it has been eating away at me. I need to get over this but i find myself only going deeper into what im trying to get out of. everyone asks me why and i cant answer. i myself ask why and i just dont get it. how can you become so tied up in something that you lose sight of everything else. there really is no reason for me to feel the way i do. its stupid and im trying so hard to just let go of something i dont ever know will come back. ive tried to get closure. with that i know i could make myself move on but theyve led me to believe that its not dead. i asked and they themselves said no its not. so what to i do now. i cant let go and move on but i feel like im waiting for a resolution that will never come. and yet i want and make myself believe that time is the answer....

time seems to be the problem now.

k so moving on from my emotions spilling out.

LAurel I heart you!!!!!!!!! Oh my god! Lunch today was fucking hilarious. i give you mad props for making me laugh like that cuz the only person that can usually do that is myra.

Myra I love you to death and you have always been there for me. Though i think ive stated this numerous times i shall announce this again.
MYRA FUCKING ROCKS!!!!

Anyways......
hows the lj community lately....ive been dead for a while..but i think im resurrecting the lj of me! for those who do care...if there are any of you.

Peace out.