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[knit_me_a_heart]

last night i had a dream about my grandmother. my fathers mother, whom i don't remember at all. in my dream, my mom called me, it was late valentines day night and she told me she had the greatest gift waiting for me. and then she came, my grandmother, that is. i don't remember much, but she was visitting from hawaii, she came just to see me. she was beautiful. she made me so happy. she was proud of me. even though my life hasn't amounted to much thus far. she still loved me. i woke up so disappointed because i realized she passed away before i had a chance to meet her in real life. she knew me when i was just a baby, that's why i dont remember her. i woke up wanting to know her more than anything, but i feel like she is with me now. and i feel content. i am not spirtual, and don't much believe in a heaven or afterlife, or really even ghosts and spirits. but she touched me, and i'm wondering if this will change my mind... i am certain she is with me now.

on a less serious note, tonight i ate shit like it was my job. and it fucking hurts...



im going to try and sleep it off now in hopes it won't hurt in the morning, but if it's too bad, you best believe i'm not going to work.

♥

also, i just wanted to say i have the sweetest boyfriend in the entire world. i really should write more about him here. he makes my heart feel warm again, gives me butterflies everytime he calls, and puts a smile on my face like no other. goodness, he is wonderful. and my mom adores him. that's the best part.