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Went to a doof on saturday night. It was fucking awesome because shae and i tripped together for the first time. We no longer need words to talk to each other, we can grunt and squeak to eachother now and we know what we're talking about. We had a fucking awesome time, we were seriously 5yr olds again. We re-discovered everthing but it was cool because we were re-discovering it but we knew more. I can't really explain it but it was fun. We also found out that I'm stuck. People are always talking about other people getting stuck on acid and how bad it is. I'm basically stuck with the feeling you get from acid. You feel like a ghost. You're totally content with life and you just float. Things come in and out of your like and it doesn't matter, they just come in and out. I'm a ghost!!! I'm stuck feeling so weightless... i don't remember what its like to feel solid anymore, im just floating. I don't know if i like it or not. I don't remember what its like to feel solid so i don't know what im missing out on. It's kinda scary because I'm happy with life and so little things dont matter. It doesn't matter if i hurt someone because people just come and go out of my life. No one really stays.. apart from shae. I've been stuck since earth dance, which explains so many things that have happened over the past few months. My cuts happen when I occasionally pop out of my ghostly figure and am a whole, solid being again. My cuts happen when I can feel again.